Observation-mode

So, I’ve had a hankerin’ for some classic movies lately. Does classic mean the 60’s anymore? Or does it mean anything older than 10 years? I’m voting for the 10 year mark. Heck, there’s stuff from 5 years ago – already considered ‘classic’. I guess, as time is speeding up – the gap that creates classics would get smaller too. Instant classic also comes to mind. Regardless of how I am trying to categorize it – the movie I watched was definitely an oldie-but-goodie. What’s interesting about it this time – is that I am really seeing the parallels in it with ‘real life’. I don’t think I really looked at it in this way before. It was always just… entertainment.

It’s ‘The Truman Show’ (starring Jim Carrey) it came out back in 1998. I have seen it a few times over the years. But the difference between the 7 or 8 years ago (when I’m thinking I last saw it) to watching it last week… huge! It is still entertainment… but oh how oddly realistic it kind-of is.

If you haven’t seen this cute film, maybe give it a chance.

As I was watching this with new perspective I kept noticing how ‘that’s so us’! Us, the human race. We are all in the dome of make believe. Lots of similarities – from living a programmed 3D life to our little awakening moments that lead us to a better ‘enlightenment’. Being ‘watched’, guided, and having things orchestrated via the Universe to create synchronicities. Sure, this all varies from person to person but the gist of it is still the same. We are asleep – until we wake up! I just thought it was kind-of funny how I didn’t notice that correlation before. But then, I was in waking-mode when I saw it last. Sometimes you need to be past something before being fully aware of it. When you are in it – you might not know you are in it.

Kind of like… now. The wave of awakening that is happening now has many people not even knowing they are awakening. They just know something is changing, different, or they are beginning to click with new thoughts/how they think. This works in conjunction with how they feel, getting in touch with emotions, or just general deeper pondering that they have probably been avoiding (for years or maybe all their life). There are a lot of ‘Truman’s’ awakening. And yes this is good n’ great, but some can wake up swinging arms and punching air! There can be confusion, panic, freak-outs, and just general misunderstanding.

As an energy/lightworker I feel that it really is part of our job to be the calming voice, maybe ‘voice of reason’, from the perspective of already being on the other side of this (the things we all go through, been through, experienced and learned from in our own processes). We are here to help as this wave comes rushing in and through. The person(s) receiving the help might not realize it in that moment but it will click somewhere down the line for them. It’s not our job to pull and yank anyone by the hand and force them to process quickly. We just need to be the light, patience, love, and understanding.

We are all on our own journey’s here. We have things we want to do/be individually… but also as a collective group (as we build into our unity-consciousness). Being patient with someone while they work-through their own crap is beneficial to the parties involved as well as the group (all of us) as a whole.

Remember to be understanding with the Truman’s in your life. They might be feeling confusion, a ‘stuck-ness’, lonely, bored, sad, agitated, lost, struggling, bouts of anger, maybe even some depression. Things are coming up for them, being shown to them, repeating for them. We are all having this – at some level. Mine… have gotten a little easier and, I will say, more obvious! It might be the next day when it becomes obvious… but to me – that’s fast! There is something to be said for ‘sleeping on it’. I love working on things in my dream-time. It has taken a few years – but I can recognize a block/obstacle way faster than I did even just a year ago. It comes with awareness, intuition, observation, tuning-in, allowing Source to assist, being conscious, loving yourself, having a more positive mind-set, and knowing that this 3D matrix is for learning.

In school, did we all fester on an algebra problem we just couldn’t grasp? Did we embed it into our physical body or sub-conscious somewhere and wait for it to bubble up later in life? No. We learned how to approach it, adjusted the ‘math’ for our capabilities, solved the equation and moved on. It was something we took care of right away so we could be done with it. We aren’t packing around this algebra problem with us for the rest of our lives, so it can pop-up at the worst possible moment, making us work through it again. OR… maybe you are. Some people love math and do pack around equations. I, however, do not. The moral of this math analogy is… We can do this ‘problem solving’ with earthly issues that tend to fester for us. Things that we DID pack away (usually from our childhood) – we can bring them up, acknowledge what it was here to teach, approach it in an observational-mode, and then ‘get the lesson’. Thank it, love it, forgive it – if need be – and let it go. Solve your math problem… Be done with it!

Yes, it’s that: wanting to bring it up part.

A lot of people don’t want to bring it up. Sorry… but you will have to. You cannot grow and evolve without taking a look. A good, close, look. These are your lessons. If you aren’t done with them – they keep coming at you. Over and over and over…. Man, I am exhausted just thinking about it! How do people live like this? How was I living like this? Oh, that’s right… I was snoooooozing! Being sleepy or, for some, completely asleep keeps everything buried. If it comes up… give it a quick WTF?, then ignore it, and re-bury it! Hurry… before anyone notices! Bury it deeper this time!

This process will no longer work.

Maybe these are zombie-issues. They just keep creeping up from their depths, attack you for a while until you kill it and then re-bury it! Oh my… sometimes I wonder how I can go from a Truman-like movie thought process to a Zombie-like movie… hmmm. It’s all related, right?

And on that note…

It’s Lion gateway time! The 8-8 is right around the corner. What an awesome time to bring up some trauma you have had packed away. Yes, bring it up and take a look. Ask it questions, wait for answers. Communicate with it. It wants to show you, teach you, and help you in your growth. You don’t have to solve it in one day. If it was a doozie, approach it in baby steps. The fact that you are ready to learn is already: step one.

Be patient with yourself, but also be diligent. You have to keep working at it/on it until you have truly cleared it. If it comes back around, when you thought you were done, then – you aren’t done. Keep taking a look. The more of an observer you can be – the better. It can be difficult to see things when you are too emotionally there. With time, practice, and the true love you have for yourself – to work on yourself, you will start seeing things more clearly. With true clarity comes the cleansing.

Sounds funny-weird… but I would think that when the true wave of awakening is in full swing… there is going to be so much crying and cleansing going on – there will be no time for drama! Think about it.

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May

Did I just pass an entire month without writing anything?

I think I did! This month sped by me and here it is… the last day(s). It’s okay though. It’s been a super-busy month and not blogging anything is absolutely forgiven! 🙂 hahaha

It has been a month of getting things going, or done, around here. Many projects along with the balance of a few family outings and enjoying nature – or a cute little coastal town. I feel like the physical labor (of homesteading) has taken up most of my days these last few weeks. And rightfully so. I am trying to get my garden prepped and plants in! The growing season is short here. Some days I feel like its all prep work just in time to pull it all out because we creeped into fall.

Anyway… summing up the month of May: it was good.

I haven’t been noticing anything ascensionly-major, within my earthly realm, to really take notes on. Hahaha… is that even a word? Ascensionly? It is now! 🙂   I know I have been so physically busy outside and then exhausted by the time bedtime rolls around I am either: not noticing or I am noticing – but it seems kind-of normal to me now. It’s not a big deal and I keep carrying on. I would consider that – good integration. I recognize, allow, apply, integrate (maybe not always in that order)… and keep moving on while I am working in my ‘world’. It’s all good, yes, very good.

I have to mention, that this month – I have really enjoyed listening to body healing guided meditations while I am passing-out. I am loving these things. Playing them right off that good ole you-tube. I’m sure there are other ways of accessing these – but that is the route I am currently using. Kindle + you tube app = a wonderful meditation while falling asleep!

There’s a good reason why I am choosing the body healing. I need it! On all levels. From actual physical ailments (of injuries), current hormonal fluctuations (perimenopause), to the daily beatings I am giving my physical body right now (gardening/shoveling/digging/lifting/hauling/work-work-work). I would recommend these to anyone looking for some calming healing body talk and re-assurance. I do feel like I am getting some good sleep. And we all know that good sleep promotes better all-over-wellness.

There’s an array of people offering some great meditations on that platform. And I am thankful/grateful for all those that are offering their amazing talents (for free). Thank you to those of you doing this. Love and gratitude goes out to you! There’s more than body healing, the variety is practically endless. Need a calming or an enlightening meditation? Click on over to the you tube and listen to something. Meditation isn’t just that stereo-typical yoga-pose and absolute silence. It has evolved and it can be guided. If you just want music with no one guiding you … there is that too. Binaural beats, solfeggio, higher frequency tones, shamanic, and even angelic – it’s like being a kid in a candy store! So fun!

My current faves are: Unlock Your Life, Meditations by Rasa, Steve Nobel (The Soul Matrix), Progressive Hypnosis, Om Shaanti… just to name a few. There really is something for everyone!
Get your ear-buds on and happy meditating everyone!

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Riding the Waves

This morning as I sit in the quiet and journal… I can’t help but to notice that my ears are plugged, again. It’s more like: they are giving the sensation of plugging and un-plugging. Add this to the ever-present subtle ringing always going on in the back ground… It’s interesting.

The sensations/feelings of being underwater have been going on, for me, probably a few weeks now. I don’t remember exactly when this started happening but I know that when something/sensations start to repeat (become more constant) – I take notice. My ears need to be ‘popped’ but there probably isn’t a way to do that considering this isn’t your typical 3D rise and fall in elevation. It is, however, probably related to the rise in my vibration/5D with no ordinary ‘falling’ back down into, what used to be, the bottom/sea-level. Anyone who has experienced the popping-of-ones-ears due to going up and down hills/mountains/elevation knows what this feels like. Somewhere, and at some time, back at ground-level your ears will pop or eventually clear out. I am waiting for the ‘clearing out’. 🙂

I do like that it isn’t affecting me in any other way that the 3D/density-way would. I can hear fine, I can hear clearly. I am not having any equilibrium issues, or problems with balance. No headaches, head pressures, or overall chronic yawning (that can come with ear-popping). None of those things that can actually throw someone off a bit in their functioning. It’s not bad at all; just noticeable and sometimes a little weird/different and very new.

Weird happens when the additional sensation of a wave comes over me. Energetic waves will pulse through my body – from head to toe. Subtle inner-core vibrations that have their moments of intensity – but nothing that would knock me on my butt. The only way I can describe this is being under water or at the edge of the ocean/the beach when that water is coming up to shore and washes over you… a wave. I don’t mind this at all. I have even begun to smile when it happens.

I know that this is a new ascension ‘symptom’ for me and is serving a purpose as my DNA is adjusting, upgrading and coming on-line; as my physical body integrates, as I continue to receive and absorb all this new energy. My new body.

Symptom… I don’t know if that is a truly accurate word for what happens to me anymore. Symptom sounds like something you are ‘coming down with’ or negatively affected by; or chronic. I want to find a new word to describe all the great 5D upgraded changes/re-adjustments/recalibrations going on. There probably already is one; and ‘upgrade’ is probably it. Maybe I will leave the word symptom for any of those more physically ‘ailing’ things – the things that come up for me to heal. Deep wounding and scars that have ‘symptoms’ because I have been carrying it around for so long. Almost chronic… but not quite.

Even the definition of the word symptom has a negative connotation to it. Here’s the Merriam-Webster definition: subjective evidence of disease or physical disturbance: something that indicates the presence of bodily disorder.
That just doesn’t sound like what my integration of upgrades and activations is all about. Since words carry a vibration – I would like to find a word that is a little more pleasing. Clicking around the dictionary website I was trying to find something that is similar but not such a ‘debbie-downer’, if ya know what I mean…

The simple word of ‘sign’, or even ‘signal’, was a word I came across. It has a nice ring to it. There are some similarities but the definition has a more upbeat vibe, I feel.

Sign: a motion or gesture by which a thought is expressed or a command or wish made known. Also has the definition of: something material or external that stands for or signifies something spiritual; something indicating the presence or existence of something else.

Signal: to notify by a signal; to communicate or indicate by or as if by signals; distinguished from the ordinary.

These both would work. For the sign definition where it states ‘something material or external’ – that would need to be flipped and tweaked just a bit. Maybe to something internal and a sensation. Is a sensation a ‘material’ thing? Well, it ‘materializes’ for me! Internally! 🙂

Ahhh… trying to find the right words to describe the Divine has always been a struggle for us humans. We do our best with what we can/understand. We do our best for what we can cognize, personally. It’s a toughie but we are a persistent-folk! What feels like a ‘wave’ to me might feel like a different kind of vibration to someone else. I think that regardless of what words we individually find to describe our signs/signals, or even symptoms, the knowing is there. The knowing and awareness that we recognize for ourselves and in each other – the Divine, the upgrades, the ascension, the higher-vibes! At the very core of it all… words aren’t even necessary. Just feeling the love is all that is needed. 🙂

Keep integrating everyone! Integrate with absolute love! Feel the waves, swim in the deep, keep coming on-line and being plugged-in to the Divine! ❤

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Grounding!

I had a moment of not being in my body today and I noticed how weird it was. I noticed how weird it was that I also noticed (how weird it was)!

I thought I was doing my normal grocery shopping task… and being: normal (or 3D, if you will). 🙂

To begin with, I will mention that doing the actual shopping – it seemed like I was kind-of mentally there but not really. All well and good, I guess. But when it came time to check out and pay for all my groceries… I suddenly felt really weird, I felt floaty, I felt wavy… I felt like I was observing myself stumbling along with trying to pay. I even recognized that ‘I feel like I am watching myself starring at this wallet’. Hmmm… weird. I feel a little… weird.

I watched myself look through a wallet that seemed suddenly foreign to me. What am I paying with? What are all these cards? Is this even my wallet? Yes… yes it is.

I found my card. I then had a brief moment with the terminal… WTF? What is with all the brain farts? After paying I head out to the car. I had another floaty-moment and stared at my car while I was trying to comprehend the unlocking of it. I suddenly found myself mentally walking through the steps, visualizing in my mind, of getting into my car! I then realized… shit… I am so-not-grounded! I need to ground, and do it now!

I might have even blurted this out loud in the parking lot… I can’t remember. I just knew I was going to ground into Gaia right then and there! I gave myself a brief moment of standing between my open car door and the cart… feeling Gaia under my feet and sending my grounding cord down. Seconds later I was telling myself to grab each bag, one at a time. Feel the weight, notice them, and arrange them in the car… I was focusing-in on the moment… the ‘now’.

This was good. I was feeling ‘better’ by the time I was all done and back in the driver seat! By ‘better’ I am meaning – like I was ‘all there’ again and felt like I was back on earth! The drive home even felt different. Which tells me I left the house totally floaty and ungrounded. Accidents happen when you aren’t grounded.

This was definitely a reminder that I need to ground more frequently than I used to; and probably should be making it a daily conscious effort! The Gaia energies and 5D transformation(s) have had me all over the place lately. Things are speeding up and if my 5D DNA is taking me there/with her… I need to make it a point to practice grounding-in way more than I did… even just a few months ago!

I know I am living in a duality-space right now. This place and space between worlds is becoming something I can sense (and pick up on) a little faster with each time I find myself in the ‘between’. I am just guessing that those of us in ascension-mode probably have some of the same things happening but also very different!

I might even be in that bubble where it used to be: ground so you can meditate and ‘take yourself there’ while making sure you are connecting to Gaia. But lately I feel there is a flipping going on where it’s: ground because you are already ‘there’, regardless of meditation(s), and you still need to keep your connection to Gaia! I don’t know if that makes sense. It’s probably going to get harder and harder to describe what is going on/happening – as I keep upgrading and going 5D. Stuff can get indescribable.

There is probably no words in our planetary-human-vocabulary that can even come close to the Divine energies one can feel, sense, experience, cognize, integrate and assimilate.

So… on that note… I guess this is a heads up that my future journaling’s will probably consist of made-up words and concepts in order to try to describe the sensations, energies, physical shifting, and awareness-es. 🙂

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