Riding the Waves

This morning as I sit in the quiet and journal… I can’t help but to notice that my ears are plugged, again. It’s more like: they are giving the sensation of plugging and un-plugging. Add this to the ever-present subtle ringing always going on in the back ground… It’s interesting.

The sensations/feelings of being underwater have been going on, for me, probably a few weeks now. I don’t remember exactly when this started happening but I know that when something/sensations start to repeat (become more constant) – I take notice. My ears need to be ‘popped’ but there probably isn’t a way to do that considering this isn’t your typical 3D rise and fall in elevation. It is, however, probably related to the rise in my vibration/5D with no ordinary ‘falling’ back down into, what used to be, the bottom/sea-level. Anyone who has experienced the popping-of-ones-ears due to going up and down hills/mountains/elevation knows what this feels like. Somewhere, and at some time, back at ground-level your ears will pop or eventually clear out. I am waiting for the ‘clearing out’. 🙂

I do like that it isn’t affecting me in any other way that the 3D/density-way would. I can hear fine, I can hear clearly. I am not having any equilibrium issues, or problems with balance. No headaches, head pressures, or overall chronic yawning (that can come with ear-popping). None of those things that can actually throw someone off a bit in their functioning. It’s not bad at all; just noticeable and sometimes a little weird/different and very new.

Weird happens when the additional sensation of a wave comes over me. Energetic waves will pulse through my body – from head to toe. Subtle inner-core vibrations that have their moments of intensity – but nothing that would knock me on my butt. The only way I can describe this is being under water or at the edge of the ocean/the beach when that water is coming up to shore and washes over you… a wave. I don’t mind this at all. I have even begun to smile when it happens.

I know that this is a new ascension ‘symptom’ for me and is serving a purpose as my DNA is adjusting, upgrading and coming on-line; as my physical body integrates, as I continue to receive and absorb all this new energy. My new body.

Symptom… I don’t know if that is a truly accurate word for what happens to me anymore. Symptom sounds like something you are ‘coming down with’ or negatively affected by; or chronic. I want to find a new word to describe all the great 5D upgraded changes/re-adjustments/recalibrations going on. There probably already is one; and ‘upgrade’ is probably it. Maybe I will leave the word symptom for any of those more physically ‘ailing’ things – the things that come up for me to heal. Deep wounding and scars that have ‘symptoms’ because I have been carrying it around for so long. Almost chronic… but not quite.

Even the definition of the word symptom has a negative connotation to it. Here’s the Merriam-Webster definition: subjective evidence of disease or physical disturbance: something that indicates the presence of bodily disorder.
That just doesn’t sound like what my integration of upgrades and activations is all about. Since words carry a vibration – I would like to find a word that is a little more pleasing. Clicking around the dictionary website I was trying to find something that is similar but not such a ‘debbie-downer’, if ya know what I mean…

The simple word of ‘sign’, or even ‘signal’, was a word I came across. It has a nice ring to it. There are some similarities but the definition has a more upbeat vibe, I feel.

Sign: a motion or gesture by which a thought is expressed or a command or wish made known. Also has the definition of: something material or external that stands for or signifies something spiritual; something indicating the presence or existence of something else.

Signal: to notify by a signal; to communicate or indicate by or as if by signals; distinguished from the ordinary.

These both would work. For the sign definition where it states ‘something material or external’ – that would need to be flipped and tweaked just a bit. Maybe to something internal and a sensation. Is a sensation a ‘material’ thing? Well, it ‘materializes’ for me! Internally! 🙂

Ahhh… trying to find the right words to describe the Divine has always been a struggle for us humans. We do our best with what we can/understand. We do our best for what we can cognize, personally. It’s a toughie but we are a persistent-folk! What feels like a ‘wave’ to me might feel like a different kind of vibration to someone else. I think that regardless of what words we individually find to describe our signs/signals, or even symptoms, the knowing is there. The knowing and awareness that we recognize for ourselves and in each other – the Divine, the upgrades, the ascension, the higher-vibes! At the very core of it all… words aren’t even necessary. Just feeling the love is all that is needed. 🙂

Keep integrating everyone! Integrate with absolute love! Feel the waves, swim in the deep, keep coming on-line and being plugged-in to the Divine! ❤

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April!

Things have been fairly calm the last couple of weeks, and there is nothing wrong with ‘calm’. 🙂

I did have a wonderful birthday at the end of March. I got to hang-out and get caught up with my favorite sister! She’s my favorite because she is my only sister.  🙂  This has nothing to do with sister-in-law’s, of which I have those. The sister – sister is a unique relationship. Our family consists of a lot of brothers and us two girls. So, it’s safe to say – we have a special bond.

We live so far apart that when we do get to spend some real quality time together – we stay up super late… every single night! You would think I would have gotten tired but I didn’t. I was in the throes of having fun, discussing the deepest of deep issues, eating chocolate and sampling wines (spread out over the week). It was a great b-day week for sure! I will admit… a couple days in, I was starting to look pretty haggard and I didn’t even care. Yup, pretty fun!

April is now here and good grief… half way over already! I knew time was speeding up but I could swear it was the first just two days ago! There has been the gradual increase in outside/yard work for us. More time outside now that the snow has receded enough to start digging in the dirt. It’s only going to keep increasing and becoming busier (in a good way)! I am so looking forward to the days of warm sunshine and cloudless nights (stars and meteor showers… right?!).

I’ve also been getting hit with creative inspirations that have me back-at-it in my art studio. I have been hit-and-miss this last/past year. I am feeling the creation-vibes really starting to juice back up. I know that most of the stop and go syndrome I had was due to a lot of the clearing, releasing and purging of some really dense blockages I was packing around. I find that with each bit of releasement of the ‘old’ I gain a new, fresh, perspective. With higher vibrational energies comes a series of thought patterns for my creative processes, my next creative inspired action, and that extension of myself. I’m also finding interest in places outside and beyond my ‘normal’; or what used to be my normal. And this is all very good!

I’m pretty sure, since 2019 has started, I went up another step on that giant staircase of ‘life’… I might have even gone up two! You know the one… it has thousands of steps to climb! However many steps I just climbed in these last couple of months – it has been feeling really good. Good, great and wonderful all the way to my core! My soul-core!

I know there has been some major shifting going on and I have been doing my best at integrating and assimilating. The adjustment period can be quick or it can be more drawn out. I have moments of both – depending on what I need and where I need it. I understand the pulsing running through my body, the body-rocks, and the ‘waves’. I understand the shifting of frequencies, ringing, and pitch going on in my ears. I understand the change in vision. I understand when I can see light-shadow and ‘orbs’ before my camera does! Yes, there are some really awesome shifts happening. And we are all adjusting differently. Allowing and not holding any resistance is what gets you to that ‘next step’ a little quicker. It’s been fun and some really cool things are manifesting for me.

As this month comes and goes… I will continue to remain open and keep working on myself. We’re never done… nope. There’s no going back even if I tried. But why the hell would I want to?! Yikes! Just thinking about all that low vibrational density I spent years cleaning up has me appreciate how far along I have come! It went from: looking back over a year (at the change and progress)… to: looking at change in a month! I know that the weekly change is coming. Heck – I might even be ‘in it’ now. Who knows when the ‘daily’ will show up?! My best guess… I’m already doing ‘dailies’ but I will notice it a week later! Hahaha! 🙂 Funny!

I just keep living in my ‘now’; working on myself, releasing what needs to go, then filling up with The Divine love and light. Chipping away at my ‘block’, I guess. And trying to remain in the happiness-zone. Not all days are perfect; and that’s okay too. It’s called being human. 🙂

Love and blessings!

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3-3-‘3’

Happy mind, body, and spirit gateway-day! As a 3-3-3 portal it seems to have a few ways of being looked at; and I am noticing various ‘this and that’s’. Perspective, right? I am finding that however it is being conceptualized/translated it boils-down to the core energies/knowings of: Christ-consciousness, Ascended Masters/Spirit, and you/your soul/awakening, aligning, ascending and transforming.

I, personally (probably like many others), have a LOT going on right now. And I am noticing: hard-core!

Along with the myriad of gateways, portals, and cosmic events/happenings… this 3 year is pressing down on my gas-pedal. It is offering me another layer of energetic-action(s) because 3 is my life path number. A three life-path in a three-year… powerful stuff! Today is really feeling like a T-H-R-E-E punch! In a good way.

As if this wasn’t already enough for me to integrate, assimilate, and work-with I also am fully engaged into my Chiron return… in Aries! Do I have moments where I feel like I could implode? Uh… yes! Hahaha! 🙂

Seriously though, Chiron in Aries has me working-on and healing, releasing, clearing my wounding’s while this new energetic year of ‘3’ has me propelling forward.

Have I been busy at my core-level? Yes!

Does it have me feeling like I am all-over the place? Yes!

Am I needing naps (longer meditations or to sleep in) because the energies I continually integrate knock me on my ass? Yes!

Do I find myself in a pool of tears because I find, face, and forgive a deep wound/scar; while simultaneously feel love, joy and happiness that I am now free from it? Hell-Yes!

So… as this 3-3-3 day brings in another layer/level of intense vibrational upgrades – I have actually been feeling pretty energetic! BUT I know that at some point… I am going to get hit with a wave that will probably have me feeling K-O’d! (knocked out) 

I like having a portal-day pumping me up with energy and actually feeling: energetic! I will admit… they can be hit and miss. Some portals/gateways – have me completely vegging-out and feeling drained, exhausted. But I also have some that have me feeling amped, energetic, and inspired while getting lit-up from the beautiful love-Universe and Pure Source! I open to allow and receive.

However you comprehend what this triple 3 day means for you: (examples of) the Trinity… mind, body, spirit; beginning, middle, ending; the Father, the Son, and Holy Spirit… it is Divine. This is a day of Divine/Pure Source energies, frequencies, codes, upgrades, love, expansion, transformation, awakening, awareness, intuition, and that general deep, deep inner-soul-stuff! 🙂

Enjoy it! Feel it! Integrate it! Keep rockin’ your new-self on this new-earth!
Love and blessings ❤

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Grounding!

I had a moment of not being in my body today and I noticed how weird it was. I noticed how weird it was that I also noticed (how weird it was)!

I thought I was doing my normal grocery shopping task… and being: normal (or 3D, if you will). 🙂

To begin with, I will mention that doing the actual shopping – it seemed like I was kind-of mentally there but not really. All well and good, I guess. But when it came time to check out and pay for all my groceries… I suddenly felt really weird, I felt floaty, I felt wavy… I felt like I was observing myself stumbling along with trying to pay. I even recognized that ‘I feel like I am watching myself starring at this wallet’. Hmmm… weird. I feel a little… weird.

I watched myself look through a wallet that seemed suddenly foreign to me. What am I paying with? What are all these cards? Is this even my wallet? Yes… yes it is.

I found my card. I then had a brief moment with the terminal… WTF? What is with all the brain farts? After paying I head out to the car. I had another floaty-moment and stared at my car while I was trying to comprehend the unlocking of it. I suddenly found myself mentally walking through the steps, visualizing in my mind, of getting into my car! I then realized… shit… I am so-not-grounded! I need to ground, and do it now!

I might have even blurted this out loud in the parking lot… I can’t remember. I just knew I was going to ground into Gaia right then and there! I gave myself a brief moment of standing between my open car door and the cart… feeling Gaia under my feet and sending my grounding cord down. Seconds later I was telling myself to grab each bag, one at a time. Feel the weight, notice them, and arrange them in the car… I was focusing-in on the moment… the ‘now’.

This was good. I was feeling ‘better’ by the time I was all done and back in the driver seat! By ‘better’ I am meaning – like I was ‘all there’ again and felt like I was back on earth! The drive home even felt different. Which tells me I left the house totally floaty and ungrounded. Accidents happen when you aren’t grounded.

This was definitely a reminder that I need to ground more frequently than I used to; and probably should be making it a daily conscious effort! The Gaia energies and 5D transformation(s) have had me all over the place lately. Things are speeding up and if my 5D DNA is taking me there/with her… I need to make it a point to practice grounding-in way more than I did… even just a few months ago!

I know I am living in a duality-space right now. This place and space between worlds is becoming something I can sense (and pick up on) a little faster with each time I find myself in the ‘between’. I am just guessing that those of us in ascension-mode probably have some of the same things happening but also very different!

I might even be in that bubble where it used to be: ground so you can meditate and ‘take yourself there’ while making sure you are connecting to Gaia. But lately I feel there is a flipping going on where it’s: ground because you are already ‘there’, regardless of meditation(s), and you still need to keep your connection to Gaia! I don’t know if that makes sense. It’s probably going to get harder and harder to describe what is going on/happening – as I keep upgrading and going 5D. Stuff can get indescribable.

There is probably no words in our planetary-human-vocabulary that can even come close to the Divine energies one can feel, sense, experience, cognize, integrate and assimilate.

So… on that note… I guess this is a heads up that my future journaling’s will probably consist of made-up words and concepts in order to try to describe the sensations, energies, physical shifting, and awareness-es. 🙂

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2-19 This Full Moon Is SUPER

Full Snow Super-Moon! Big bright beautiful moon!

Absolutely gorgeous – it has been, yes. The nights leading up to the super-moon – radiant; powerful, awe-inspiring, yes! (Insert your best Yoda impersonation here)

I can’t sleep because it has been so bright. But then I realize… I kind-of don’t want to! My mind-body-spirit connection has been on high-alert; basically since the new year started. When I say high-alert – I am meaning: in-tune like never before. The things going on now are a whole-nuther level UP from, even, last year!

This new earth energy has me firing up some cylinders that I didn’t even know I had. Ya, there are a couple of rusty-cylinders that I have been consistently scrubbing, cleaning, and buffing with the inner-knowing of bringing them back to full-‘life’-potential but this journaling isn’t about that… at least I don’t think it is. Maybe it is! Ahhh, these are also confusing times. What exactly is it that I am doing? Or supposed to be doing? I can get a little A.D.D. and feel like I am all over the place – all while trying to get with the grips of this new reality, the new earth, the 5D and ascension that is upon us.

These continual non-stop ascension activities are messing with some stuff. I’m not sure if ‘messing’ is the right term though. I (like most all of us) was living in a cloud for so long, a haze of programmed ways of thinking, believing, processing, and just assuming that ‘this is real’; when technically – it was not.

THIS… this ‘now’ is not really ‘messing’ with stuff – if it was never real to begin with. It just appears that way. That is the ego-mind/monkey-mind trying to organize and process what it doesn’t even understand or comprehend.

The 3D is dissolving, I guess this is what is getting ‘messed with’. It’s letting go of the old, and learning or re-learning/remembering, how to adjust with all the newly integrated 5D+. It can feel a little crazy-tired-and-wired all at the same time. For example… right now – I am super tired! I am physically exhausted but my higher consciousness is wanting to gobble-up so much new information right now! It is wanting me to keep gradually pressing down on that gas pedal. I then find myself bypassing sleep mode for reading, reading, reading, listening, listening, listening, writing, writing, writing; and repeat! Physically pooped… mentally awake and spiritually-‘hyper-active’! This happens quite frequently for me! It reminds me of the scene in the movie ‘The Matrix’ when Neo gets hooked up to learn – and learns Kung Fu, for example. He wants to know: more!

There’s a constant download of all-things-new; new discoveries, new information, new perspectives. It’s not actually new 🙂 but it is to me! This has been my ride since my awakening. I have moments when things slow down; I take some time for self-care: I integrate, I assimilate, adjust and work on my alignment. I have chunks of time where all I want to do is meditate and sleep. Just enough, apparently, before I go through another round of feeling the high energies, absorbing, learning, opening up to Pure Source wisdom, receiving downloads, frequencies, light, and healing energies. Mentally jazzed and excited and going probably a little too fast for the physical body to keep up. It’s a cycle I see myself easily getting caught up in, but I recognize it and remind myself – it’s time to take a nap! Slow down – you can get right back into it after some rest. Right now, though, I am binging on all this fun new stuff!! Things are, literally, changing daily! This really ‘lights the fires and kicks the tires’…

This super-full-moon is just more energies in the mix that is: my life (maybe yours too)! All these full moon’s we have been having at ‘zero degrees’ is culminating it all into this amazing zero set point right now. It is a full-on energetic-high-vibrational time. I have been feeling it continually amping-up. And from what I am understanding – there’s no slowing down any time soon. Along with Gaia, we all have a lot of clearing/shifting to do in order to reach our highest potential(s).

Full moons are great for clearing, releasing, and healing! You gotta clean out the ‘old’ so all your ‘new’ has a place to go/be/do! Good bye 3D! Hello 5D, you can come on in… 3D was just leaving! 🙂

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I heart DNA Upgrades!

The DNA upgrades are continuing on. Yes, of course they are!

The last couple of weeks I have been having some re-wiring going on and I have been noticing them, acknowledging them, observing them all while giving them the love, care, and space-for-assimilation needed.

As I have been clearing out my ‘old’ – I make way to let my ‘new’ keep coming in. New light-body… I can feel the rebuilding happening. It’s subtle for the most part. There are moments of intensity – but they seem fairly quick and not as intensely-intrusive as they used to be. My early days required a shake-up, I guess. When it’s new and misunderstood – it can be a bit jarring at times. Not to say that I am done having those… I have NO idea! I am just noticing that they seem to be a little less disruptive. Discovering (and then applying) that I can be and should be working with these activations was a game-changer for me. I have opted for the light-body DNA upgrading to be done with ease and grace. Ask for it. Command it. This is something we all can do. It doesn’t have to be a jarring, scary, freak-out type of transmissional-activity. It took me a couple of these ‘sudden bursts’ of weirdness to realize… it’s okay, I’m okay! And that I can be ‘with’ it, in love and gratitude, while things are happening.

I would cross-reference my upgrade-activation-activities with something I would later read (or hear) about. Guided to by my higher-self because it’s what I needed. It is validating and has a tendency to ease the monkey-mind. After a couple of these teachable moments (ah, yes, always learning!) I have become confident that the goings-on’s with my physical body, that just aren’t considered ‘normal’, are light-body re-wirings/upgrades. It helps when you have a pretty-good knowing or relationship with/about your body, or body-awareness, in general. I feel that having the connection, which I do have with my physical body, has helped me recognize, know, and understand (or cognize) a little quicker – than someone who probably has no connection with their bodies.

I have recently had the experience of my eyes and vision being ‘worked-on’; the re-wiring and upgrading. It happens… well, whenever it wants to! Once you open up to receive and allow your DNA to be upgraded – your physical body will follow suit (haha… pun intended… because our bodies are our human-suits!… anyway…) 🙂 My eyes decided to give me a blurry/wavy peripheral vision. Clear and sharp straight ahead, wavy and pulsing in my peripheral. It was interesting to just witness this. Tunnel vision? In a really weird way!

About a minute in (when I realized this ‘thing’ was not stopping) I asked: what is happening? And then my vision began to vibrate. It had… a pulsing sensation that I have never experienced before. This vision-work lasted a couple of minutes at various levels of what I can only describe as: bizarre. At one point it was like I was looking under water. I decided to close my eyes and just be in the moment. Feeling it while also visualizing being wrapped in Divine light and love. It was calming. I was calm. Within just a couple of minutes the adjustment was done.

You can resist or you can be at peace. I am knowing that being at peace is w-a-y smoother and easier than resisting! Some upgrade-adjustments could be doozies or they might be gentle. Everyone is different and we all have various ‘things’ we need to unload and clear in order for the new light and frequencies to come-on-in and make themselves at home. You also need to actually want that! Just because there is constant activity (right now) of becoming 5D/crystalline you do have the option, the choice, to accept or deny the change and wanting to be here, to experience it, to evolve.

For those of us that choose to stay, want to stay, and want to experience expansion; give permission to upgrade – and you will! Consciously or sub-consciously it works either way. I do feel that those that are choosing sub-consciously will have a lot more slaps-in-the-face and gut-punches than those who are choosing at the conscious level. If you don’t understand that your higher self/soul has chosen to integrate into the new earth paradigm – you might have some bigger struggles. You consciously don’t know or understand that you need to shake off and clear out a lot of old gunk. Things aren’t working the way they once did, people might be irritating you on a different level, and relationships are morphing into something that you can’t quite put your finger on. The change, whatever it may be, is signaling you, or them. There’s so many dynamics to awakening and the ascension process(es) that there is no one right answer or one-size-fits-all right now. But whatever it is that’s coming up, or keeps coming up, for you – it’s giving you a chance right now to open up those sleepy-eyes and look around! Wakey, wakey… eggs and bakey! There will be no more ‘hitting the snooze button’… it is time to wake up, get up, and get going! 5D has already begun!

I know there was a lot of clearing, for me, in 2018. There will probably be more clearing this year too. I don’t know how long it will take me to get all these ‘onion-layers’ peeled. I do know that each time I do clear what no longer serves me, clear cords and attachments, clear the lower vibrational stuff, clear-clear-clear… it’s allowing more light! More Divine light and higher vibrational consciousness! More-more-more! It feels good – and it should!

Love and blessings everyone!
Enjoy the energies of light and love… keep peeling your layers!

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11-11-’11’

Happy amazing portal day!

🙂

This is the day to check-in with yourself. Check-in with your heart.

Give yourself a moment of silence, sometime today, for actual reflection. Meditate, maybe get out in nature – connect with Gaia, or give yourself a couple of minutes for visualization. Hopefully you can give yourself a little sumthin’-sumthin’!

What is it that you truly want; from your heart.

Today is a great day for setting intentions: pulling in/attracting what you want your life to ‘look-like’. When you feel and think from your heart-space you will begin to align with your spiritual path and you will begin to manifest. Let your heart be the magnet.

There are a lot of energies going on with this portal and you may (or may not) be feeling it. So much photonic light coming in, codes and activations. It’s all for our upgrading, alignment with our souls purpose, for more souls to awaken, and expanding of the consciousness.

The energy is shifting from a 3D mind-set to a 5D heart-centered consciousness. We’re heading for unity consciousness – and with that… a lot of ‘newness’ for us all. As a planet, we are actually making some new history! We are going where we have never gone before. That is pretty fun and exciting to think about.

So, start (if you haven’t been doing so already) co-creating with the Universe to manifest your beautifully aligned life. Utilize this Master 11 portal day to help accelerate the genius that is you! Start tapping in to your heart. What is it saying to you in order to start living a more authentic life aligned with your spiritual purpose and values?

Maybe have that, or something similar, as your thought-provoking deep conversation with yourself… on an energetically ramped up day such as this! Then, be open to the thoughts and feelings that start coming back to you. Normally these will be love-filled, nurturing, caring, warm, pleasant, a-ha moments, epiphanies; and maybe even a break-through with something that’s bothered you or you have been struggling with.

There will probably be some physical symptom(s) you will notice/feel. Not just today – I am speaking of: in general, as you awaken/ascend. For example: Yes, my ears are ringing and I welcome it because I know that I am working with higher frequencies right now. Symptoms could be anything though… as we are all working on our own stuff. It may be brief or it may be sticking around longer; take notice and work with yourself to find the ‘why’. Physical ascension symptoms have been (and are) heightening right now. It’s all for you to shed/release what no longer serves you. On the ‘flip-side’ you may need to integrate the new energies coming in. Don’t forget to take care of yourself and rest if your body needs it. It really IS time for the ‘new you’!

This year has been about clearing things, cleaning-up, releasing. At the same time it has also been about putting things in motion. The ‘seed-planting’. It may have been subtle things or it may have been really big shake-up things (personally and globally). What ever it was or is, noticeable or not, it’s all good for your future self – and your now self.

Today is all about good vibes and your intentions for your amazingly, awesome, heart-space magnetized future. Manifested by you, for you… and the greatest and highest good.

Enjoy this day!

Love and blessings

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