Observation-mode

So, I’ve had a hankerin’ for some classic movies lately. Does classic mean the 60’s anymore? Or does it mean anything older than 10 years? I’m voting for the 10 year mark. Heck, there’s stuff from 5 years ago – already considered ‘classic’. I guess, as time is speeding up – the gap that creates classics would get smaller too. Instant classic also comes to mind. Regardless of how I am trying to categorize it – the movie I watched was definitely an oldie-but-goodie. What’s interesting about it this time – is that I am really seeing the parallels in it with ‘real life’. I don’t think I really looked at it in this way before. It was always just… entertainment.

It’s ‘The Truman Show’ (starring Jim Carrey) it came out back in 1998. I have seen it a few times over the years. But the difference between the 7 or 8 years ago (when I’m thinking I last saw it) to watching it last week… huge! It is still entertainment… but oh how oddly realistic it kind-of is.

If you haven’t seen this cute film, maybe give it a chance.

As I was watching this with new perspective I kept noticing how ‘that’s so us’! Us, the human race. We are all in the dome of make believe. Lots of similarities – from living a programmed 3D life to our little awakening moments that lead us to a better ‘enlightenment’. Being ‘watched’, guided, and having things orchestrated via the Universe to create synchronicities. Sure, this all varies from person to person but the gist of it is still the same. We are asleep – until we wake up! I just thought it was kind-of funny how I didn’t notice that correlation before. But then, I was in waking-mode when I saw it last. Sometimes you need to be past something before being fully aware of it. When you are in it – you might not know you are in it.

Kind of like… now. The wave of awakening that is happening now has many people not even knowing they are awakening. They just know something is changing, different, or they are beginning to click with new thoughts/how they think. This works in conjunction with how they feel, getting in touch with emotions, or just general deeper pondering that they have probably been avoiding (for years or maybe all their life). There are a lot of ‘Truman’s’ awakening. And yes this is good n’ great, but some can wake up swinging arms and punching air! There can be confusion, panic, freak-outs, and just general misunderstanding.

As an energy/lightworker I feel that it really is part of our job to be the calming voice, maybe ‘voice of reason’, from the perspective of already being on the other side of this (the things we all go through, been through, experienced and learned from in our own processes). We are here to help as this wave comes rushing in and through. The person(s) receiving the help might not realize it in that moment but it will click somewhere down the line for them. It’s not our job to pull and yank anyone by the hand and force them to process quickly. We just need to be the light, patience, love, and understanding.

We are all on our own journey’s here. We have things we want to do/be individually… but also as a collective group (as we build into our unity-consciousness). Being patient with someone while they work-through their own crap is beneficial to the parties involved as well as the group (all of us) as a whole.

Remember to be understanding with the Truman’s in your life. They might be feeling confusion, a ‘stuck-ness’, lonely, bored, sad, agitated, lost, struggling, bouts of anger, maybe even some depression. Things are coming up for them, being shown to them, repeating for them. We are all having this – at some level. Mine… have gotten a little easier and, I will say, more obvious! It might be the next day when it becomes obvious… but to me – that’s fast! There is something to be said for ‘sleeping on it’. I love working on things in my dream-time. It has taken a few years – but I can recognize a block/obstacle way faster than I did even just a year ago. It comes with awareness, intuition, observation, tuning-in, allowing Source to assist, being conscious, loving yourself, having a more positive mind-set, and knowing that this 3D matrix is for learning.

In school, did we all fester on an algebra problem we just couldn’t grasp? Did we embed it into our physical body or sub-conscious somewhere and wait for it to bubble up later in life? No. We learned how to approach it, adjusted the ‘math’ for our capabilities, solved the equation and moved on. It was something we took care of right away so we could be done with it. We aren’t packing around this algebra problem with us for the rest of our lives, so it can pop-up at the worst possible moment, making us work through it again. OR… maybe you are. Some people love math and do pack around equations. I, however, do not. The moral of this math analogy is… We can do this ‘problem solving’ with earthly issues that tend to fester for us. Things that we DID pack away (usually from our childhood) – we can bring them up, acknowledge what it was here to teach, approach it in an observational-mode, and then ‘get the lesson’. Thank it, love it, forgive it – if need be – and let it go. Solve your math problem… Be done with it!

Yes, it’s that: wanting to bring it up part.

A lot of people don’t want to bring it up. Sorry… but you will have to. You cannot grow and evolve without taking a look. A good, close, look. These are your lessons. If you aren’t done with them – they keep coming at you. Over and over and over…. Man, I am exhausted just thinking about it! How do people live like this? How was I living like this? Oh, that’s right… I was snoooooozing! Being sleepy or, for some, completely asleep keeps everything buried. If it comes up… give it a quick WTF?, then ignore it, and re-bury it! Hurry… before anyone notices! Bury it deeper this time!

This process will no longer work.

Maybe these are zombie-issues. They just keep creeping up from their depths, attack you for a while until you kill it and then re-bury it! Oh my… sometimes I wonder how I can go from a Truman-like movie thought process to a Zombie-like movie… hmmm. It’s all related, right?

And on that note…

It’s Lion gateway time! The 8-8 is right around the corner. What an awesome time to bring up some trauma you have had packed away. Yes, bring it up and take a look. Ask it questions, wait for answers. Communicate with it. It wants to show you, teach you, and help you in your growth. You don’t have to solve it in one day. If it was a doozie, approach it in baby steps. The fact that you are ready to learn is already: step one.

Be patient with yourself, but also be diligent. You have to keep working at it/on it until you have truly cleared it. If it comes back around, when you thought you were done, then – you aren’t done. Keep taking a look. The more of an observer you can be – the better. It can be difficult to see things when you are too emotionally there. With time, practice, and the true love you have for yourself – to work on yourself, you will start seeing things more clearly. With true clarity comes the cleansing.

Sounds funny-weird… but I would think that when the true wave of awakening is in full swing… there is going to be so much crying and cleansing going on – there will be no time for drama! Think about it.

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Summer… Yay!

Happy Summer Solstice! 

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Stopping in real quick to acknowledge this wonderful portal day!
I will be outside working the earth, this beautiful Gaia, by being in the garden, the yard/the house, and (of course) with the animals! It’s a busy time for me (for us here on our homestead) but I love every minute of it! I do love summer! 🙂

As always – this is a great portal day to be grounded while setting your intentions for your wonderful reality! Bring yourself, attract to you, the awesome reality that you want to be living! Visualize, meditate (not mandatory – but sure does help. Also – visualizing IS a meditation), and actively take steps towards it. These can be small baby steps; and even – take baby steps towards and for the baby step!

Take it easy on yourself and don’t be harsh towards your inner-monologue if you aren’t seeing anything huge manifesting (timing is a Divine-thing). Most of the time it’s the little things. Develop your awareness in all the little things. When you tune in to this – you began to see the synchronicities… then you will develop trust in these. It grows from there! See… what a simple baby step, am-I-Right?? 🙂   I bet you didn’t even realize you were manifesting?

It comes with awareness, tuning in, then trust… You got this!!
Be open to receive the Divine wisdom, the love and the light that already is: you!

Love and blessings! ❤

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3-3-‘3’

Happy mind, body, and spirit gateway-day! As a 3-3-3 portal it seems to have a few ways of being looked at; and I am noticing various ‘this and that’s’. Perspective, right? I am finding that however it is being conceptualized/translated it boils-down to the core energies/knowings of: Christ-consciousness, Ascended Masters/Spirit, and you/your soul/awakening, aligning, ascending and transforming.

I, personally (probably like many others), have a LOT going on right now. And I am noticing: hard-core!

Along with the myriad of gateways, portals, and cosmic events/happenings… this 3 year is pressing down on my gas-pedal. It is offering me another layer of energetic-action(s) because 3 is my life path number. A three life-path in a three-year… powerful stuff! Today is really feeling like a T-H-R-E-E punch! In a good way.

As if this wasn’t already enough for me to integrate, assimilate, and work-with I also am fully engaged into my Chiron return… in Aries! Do I have moments where I feel like I could implode? Uh… yes! Hahaha! 🙂

Seriously though, Chiron in Aries has me working-on and healing, releasing, clearing my wounding’s while this new energetic year of ‘3’ has me propelling forward.

Have I been busy at my core-level? Yes!

Does it have me feeling like I am all-over the place? Yes!

Am I needing naps (longer meditations or to sleep in) because the energies I continually integrate knock me on my ass? Yes!

Do I find myself in a pool of tears because I find, face, and forgive a deep wound/scar; while simultaneously feel love, joy and happiness that I am now free from it? Hell-Yes!

So… as this 3-3-3 day brings in another layer/level of intense vibrational upgrades – I have actually been feeling pretty energetic! BUT I know that at some point… I am going to get hit with a wave that will probably have me feeling K-O’d! (knocked out) 

I like having a portal-day pumping me up with energy and actually feeling: energetic! I will admit… they can be hit and miss. Some portals/gateways – have me completely vegging-out and feeling drained, exhausted. But I also have some that have me feeling amped, energetic, and inspired while getting lit-up from the beautiful love-Universe and Pure Source! I open to allow and receive.

However you comprehend what this triple 3 day means for you: (examples of) the Trinity… mind, body, spirit; beginning, middle, ending; the Father, the Son, and Holy Spirit… it is Divine. This is a day of Divine/Pure Source energies, frequencies, codes, upgrades, love, expansion, transformation, awakening, awareness, intuition, and that general deep, deep inner-soul-stuff! 🙂

Enjoy it! Feel it! Integrate it! Keep rockin’ your new-self on this new-earth!
Love and blessings ❤

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Grounding!

I had a moment of not being in my body today and I noticed how weird it was. I noticed how weird it was that I also noticed (how weird it was)!

I thought I was doing my normal grocery shopping task… and being: normal (or 3D, if you will). 🙂

To begin with, I will mention that doing the actual shopping – it seemed like I was kind-of mentally there but not really. All well and good, I guess. But when it came time to check out and pay for all my groceries… I suddenly felt really weird, I felt floaty, I felt wavy… I felt like I was observing myself stumbling along with trying to pay. I even recognized that ‘I feel like I am watching myself starring at this wallet’. Hmmm… weird. I feel a little… weird.

I watched myself look through a wallet that seemed suddenly foreign to me. What am I paying with? What are all these cards? Is this even my wallet? Yes… yes it is.

I found my card. I then had a brief moment with the terminal… WTF? What is with all the brain farts? After paying I head out to the car. I had another floaty-moment and stared at my car while I was trying to comprehend the unlocking of it. I suddenly found myself mentally walking through the steps, visualizing in my mind, of getting into my car! I then realized… shit… I am so-not-grounded! I need to ground, and do it now!

I might have even blurted this out loud in the parking lot… I can’t remember. I just knew I was going to ground into Gaia right then and there! I gave myself a brief moment of standing between my open car door and the cart… feeling Gaia under my feet and sending my grounding cord down. Seconds later I was telling myself to grab each bag, one at a time. Feel the weight, notice them, and arrange them in the car… I was focusing-in on the moment… the ‘now’.

This was good. I was feeling ‘better’ by the time I was all done and back in the driver seat! By ‘better’ I am meaning – like I was ‘all there’ again and felt like I was back on earth! The drive home even felt different. Which tells me I left the house totally floaty and ungrounded. Accidents happen when you aren’t grounded.

This was definitely a reminder that I need to ground more frequently than I used to; and probably should be making it a daily conscious effort! The Gaia energies and 5D transformation(s) have had me all over the place lately. Things are speeding up and if my 5D DNA is taking me there/with her… I need to make it a point to practice grounding-in way more than I did… even just a few months ago!

I know I am living in a duality-space right now. This place and space between worlds is becoming something I can sense (and pick up on) a little faster with each time I find myself in the ‘between’. I am just guessing that those of us in ascension-mode probably have some of the same things happening but also very different!

I might even be in that bubble where it used to be: ground so you can meditate and ‘take yourself there’ while making sure you are connecting to Gaia. But lately I feel there is a flipping going on where it’s: ground because you are already ‘there’, regardless of meditation(s), and you still need to keep your connection to Gaia! I don’t know if that makes sense. It’s probably going to get harder and harder to describe what is going on/happening – as I keep upgrading and going 5D. Stuff can get indescribable.

There is probably no words in our planetary-human-vocabulary that can even come close to the Divine energies one can feel, sense, experience, cognize, integrate and assimilate.

So… on that note… I guess this is a heads up that my future journaling’s will probably consist of made-up words and concepts in order to try to describe the sensations, energies, physical shifting, and awareness-es. 🙂

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Procrastination

On this energetic day of 2’s…

I just wanted to post a quote that became an instant favorite of mine.

It’s from Abraham Hicks, and it just resonated with me… it brought a smile to my face; as those who know me – know I can be a chronic-procrastinator. Well, maybe ‘chronic’ is too harsh of a word because it’s not all the time. I have moments or blocks-of-time where I seem to be more procrastinating than others. I’ve even openly admitted this in my writings here.

Procrastination, in my life (and probably for most), has a 3D label surrounding it: ‘lazy’. I always found that to be an irritating way to try to describe something that one just doesn’t have the deepest desire to do (right away). It’s not like I don’t want to do it… it’s just that I don’t have the energies to deal with it at that time (whatever that may be). I have always had an interesting relationship with ‘procrastination’ and I know this is part of my healing journey here.

My inner-knowing has always been letting me know that… it just isn’t really that important at this time. While those around me – the ones who think time is actually real (thinking linear) – feel I should be getting all things done, and getting them done yesterday! 🙂 I don’t let their issues with procrastination bother me. Because, really, it’s also about perception of what procrastination is (individually).

So, yes, I know this is ‘self-inflicted’ and I’m working through this area/issue – while I work-on and clean-up my childhood wounds. And… as I do-this… the quick little quote from Abraham Hicks explains it well:

What is the definition of procrastination?
It means: I can feel within my energy sensor that this action is not in perfect alignment at this time!

**Nailed-it! 🙂

All things Abraham Hicks can be checked out here:

Enjoy! https://www.abraham-hicks.com/

2-19 This Full Moon Is SUPER

Full Snow Super-Moon! Big bright beautiful moon!

Absolutely gorgeous – it has been, yes. The nights leading up to the super-moon – radiant; powerful, awe-inspiring, yes! (Insert your best Yoda impersonation here)

I can’t sleep because it has been so bright. But then I realize… I kind-of don’t want to! My mind-body-spirit connection has been on high-alert; basically since the new year started. When I say high-alert – I am meaning: in-tune like never before. The things going on now are a whole-nuther level UP from, even, last year!

This new earth energy has me firing up some cylinders that I didn’t even know I had. Ya, there are a couple of rusty-cylinders that I have been consistently scrubbing, cleaning, and buffing with the inner-knowing of bringing them back to full-‘life’-potential but this journaling isn’t about that… at least I don’t think it is. Maybe it is! Ahhh, these are also confusing times. What exactly is it that I am doing? Or supposed to be doing? I can get a little A.D.D. and feel like I am all over the place – all while trying to get with the grips of this new reality, the new earth, the 5D and ascension that is upon us.

These continual non-stop ascension activities are messing with some stuff. I’m not sure if ‘messing’ is the right term though. I (like most all of us) was living in a cloud for so long, a haze of programmed ways of thinking, believing, processing, and just assuming that ‘this is real’; when technically – it was not.

THIS… this ‘now’ is not really ‘messing’ with stuff – if it was never real to begin with. It just appears that way. That is the ego-mind/monkey-mind trying to organize and process what it doesn’t even understand or comprehend.

The 3D is dissolving, I guess this is what is getting ‘messed with’. It’s letting go of the old, and learning or re-learning/remembering, how to adjust with all the newly integrated 5D+. It can feel a little crazy-tired-and-wired all at the same time. For example… right now – I am super tired! I am physically exhausted but my higher consciousness is wanting to gobble-up so much new information right now! It is wanting me to keep gradually pressing down on that gas pedal. I then find myself bypassing sleep mode for reading, reading, reading, listening, listening, listening, writing, writing, writing; and repeat! Physically pooped… mentally awake and spiritually-‘hyper-active’! This happens quite frequently for me! It reminds me of the scene in the movie ‘The Matrix’ when Neo gets hooked up to learn – and learns Kung Fu, for example. He wants to know: more!

There’s a constant download of all-things-new; new discoveries, new information, new perspectives. It’s not actually new 🙂 but it is to me! This has been my ride since my awakening. I have moments when things slow down; I take some time for self-care: I integrate, I assimilate, adjust and work on my alignment. I have chunks of time where all I want to do is meditate and sleep. Just enough, apparently, before I go through another round of feeling the high energies, absorbing, learning, opening up to Pure Source wisdom, receiving downloads, frequencies, light, and healing energies. Mentally jazzed and excited and going probably a little too fast for the physical body to keep up. It’s a cycle I see myself easily getting caught up in, but I recognize it and remind myself – it’s time to take a nap! Slow down – you can get right back into it after some rest. Right now, though, I am binging on all this fun new stuff!! Things are, literally, changing daily! This really ‘lights the fires and kicks the tires’…

This super-full-moon is just more energies in the mix that is: my life (maybe yours too)! All these full moon’s we have been having at ‘zero degrees’ is culminating it all into this amazing zero set point right now. It is a full-on energetic-high-vibrational time. I have been feeling it continually amping-up. And from what I am understanding – there’s no slowing down any time soon. Along with Gaia, we all have a lot of clearing/shifting to do in order to reach our highest potential(s).

Full moons are great for clearing, releasing, and healing! You gotta clean out the ‘old’ so all your ‘new’ has a place to go/be/do! Good bye 3D! Hello 5D, you can come on in… 3D was just leaving! 🙂

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I heart DNA Upgrades!

The DNA upgrades are continuing on. Yes, of course they are!

The last couple of weeks I have been having some re-wiring going on and I have been noticing them, acknowledging them, observing them all while giving them the love, care, and space-for-assimilation needed.

As I have been clearing out my ‘old’ – I make way to let my ‘new’ keep coming in. New light-body… I can feel the rebuilding happening. It’s subtle for the most part. There are moments of intensity – but they seem fairly quick and not as intensely-intrusive as they used to be. My early days required a shake-up, I guess. When it’s new and misunderstood – it can be a bit jarring at times. Not to say that I am done having those… I have NO idea! I am just noticing that they seem to be a little less disruptive. Discovering (and then applying) that I can be and should be working with these activations was a game-changer for me. I have opted for the light-body DNA upgrading to be done with ease and grace. Ask for it. Command it. This is something we all can do. It doesn’t have to be a jarring, scary, freak-out type of transmissional-activity. It took me a couple of these ‘sudden bursts’ of weirdness to realize… it’s okay, I’m okay! And that I can be ‘with’ it, in love and gratitude, while things are happening.

I would cross-reference my upgrade-activation-activities with something I would later read (or hear) about. Guided to by my higher-self because it’s what I needed. It is validating and has a tendency to ease the monkey-mind. After a couple of these teachable moments (ah, yes, always learning!) I have become confident that the goings-on’s with my physical body, that just aren’t considered ‘normal’, are light-body re-wirings/upgrades. It helps when you have a pretty-good knowing or relationship with/about your body, or body-awareness, in general. I feel that having the connection, which I do have with my physical body, has helped me recognize, know, and understand (or cognize) a little quicker – than someone who probably has no connection with their bodies.

I have recently had the experience of my eyes and vision being ‘worked-on’; the re-wiring and upgrading. It happens… well, whenever it wants to! Once you open up to receive and allow your DNA to be upgraded – your physical body will follow suit (haha… pun intended… because our bodies are our human-suits!… anyway…) 🙂 My eyes decided to give me a blurry/wavy peripheral vision. Clear and sharp straight ahead, wavy and pulsing in my peripheral. It was interesting to just witness this. Tunnel vision? In a really weird way!

About a minute in (when I realized this ‘thing’ was not stopping) I asked: what is happening? And then my vision began to vibrate. It had… a pulsing sensation that I have never experienced before. This vision-work lasted a couple of minutes at various levels of what I can only describe as: bizarre. At one point it was like I was looking under water. I decided to close my eyes and just be in the moment. Feeling it while also visualizing being wrapped in Divine light and love. It was calming. I was calm. Within just a couple of minutes the adjustment was done.

You can resist or you can be at peace. I am knowing that being at peace is w-a-y smoother and easier than resisting! Some upgrade-adjustments could be doozies or they might be gentle. Everyone is different and we all have various ‘things’ we need to unload and clear in order for the new light and frequencies to come-on-in and make themselves at home. You also need to actually want that! Just because there is constant activity (right now) of becoming 5D/crystalline you do have the option, the choice, to accept or deny the change and wanting to be here, to experience it, to evolve.

For those of us that choose to stay, want to stay, and want to experience expansion; give permission to upgrade – and you will! Consciously or sub-consciously it works either way. I do feel that those that are choosing sub-consciously will have a lot more slaps-in-the-face and gut-punches than those who are choosing at the conscious level. If you don’t understand that your higher self/soul has chosen to integrate into the new earth paradigm – you might have some bigger struggles. You consciously don’t know or understand that you need to shake off and clear out a lot of old gunk. Things aren’t working the way they once did, people might be irritating you on a different level, and relationships are morphing into something that you can’t quite put your finger on. The change, whatever it may be, is signaling you, or them. There’s so many dynamics to awakening and the ascension process(es) that there is no one right answer or one-size-fits-all right now. But whatever it is that’s coming up, or keeps coming up, for you – it’s giving you a chance right now to open up those sleepy-eyes and look around! Wakey, wakey… eggs and bakey! There will be no more ‘hitting the snooze button’… it is time to wake up, get up, and get going! 5D has already begun!

I know there was a lot of clearing, for me, in 2018. There will probably be more clearing this year too. I don’t know how long it will take me to get all these ‘onion-layers’ peeled. I do know that each time I do clear what no longer serves me, clear cords and attachments, clear the lower vibrational stuff, clear-clear-clear… it’s allowing more light! More Divine light and higher vibrational consciousness! More-more-more! It feels good – and it should!

Love and blessings everyone!
Enjoy the energies of light and love… keep peeling your layers!

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