Riding the Waves

This morning as I sit in the quiet and journal… I can’t help but to notice that my ears are plugged, again. It’s more like: they are giving the sensation of plugging and un-plugging. Add this to the ever-present subtle ringing always going on in the back ground… It’s interesting.

The sensations/feelings of being underwater have been going on, for me, probably a few weeks now. I don’t remember exactly when this started happening but I know that when something/sensations start to repeat (become more constant) – I take notice. My ears need to be ‘popped’ but there probably isn’t a way to do that considering this isn’t your typical 3D rise and fall in elevation. It is, however, probably related to the rise in my vibration/5D with no ordinary ‘falling’ back down into, what used to be, the bottom/sea-level. Anyone who has experienced the popping-of-ones-ears due to going up and down hills/mountains/elevation knows what this feels like. Somewhere, and at some time, back at ground-level your ears will pop or eventually clear out. I am waiting for the ‘clearing out’. 🙂

I do like that it isn’t affecting me in any other way that the 3D/density-way would. I can hear fine, I can hear clearly. I am not having any equilibrium issues, or problems with balance. No headaches, head pressures, or overall chronic yawning (that can come with ear-popping). None of those things that can actually throw someone off a bit in their functioning. It’s not bad at all; just noticeable and sometimes a little weird/different and very new.

Weird happens when the additional sensation of a wave comes over me. Energetic waves will pulse through my body – from head to toe. Subtle inner-core vibrations that have their moments of intensity – but nothing that would knock me on my butt. The only way I can describe this is being under water or at the edge of the ocean/the beach when that water is coming up to shore and washes over you… a wave. I don’t mind this at all. I have even begun to smile when it happens.

I know that this is a new ascension ‘symptom’ for me and is serving a purpose as my DNA is adjusting, upgrading and coming on-line; as my physical body integrates, as I continue to receive and absorb all this new energy. My new body.

Symptom… I don’t know if that is a truly accurate word for what happens to me anymore. Symptom sounds like something you are ‘coming down with’ or negatively affected by; or chronic. I want to find a new word to describe all the great 5D upgraded changes/re-adjustments/recalibrations going on. There probably already is one; and ‘upgrade’ is probably it. Maybe I will leave the word symptom for any of those more physically ‘ailing’ things – the things that come up for me to heal. Deep wounding and scars that have ‘symptoms’ because I have been carrying it around for so long. Almost chronic… but not quite.

Even the definition of the word symptom has a negative connotation to it. Here’s the Merriam-Webster definition: subjective evidence of disease or physical disturbance: something that indicates the presence of bodily disorder.
That just doesn’t sound like what my integration of upgrades and activations is all about. Since words carry a vibration – I would like to find a word that is a little more pleasing. Clicking around the dictionary website I was trying to find something that is similar but not such a ‘debbie-downer’, if ya know what I mean…

The simple word of ‘sign’, or even ‘signal’, was a word I came across. It has a nice ring to it. There are some similarities but the definition has a more upbeat vibe, I feel.

Sign: a motion or gesture by which a thought is expressed or a command or wish made known. Also has the definition of: something material or external that stands for or signifies something spiritual; something indicating the presence or existence of something else.

Signal: to notify by a signal; to communicate or indicate by or as if by signals; distinguished from the ordinary.

These both would work. For the sign definition where it states ‘something material or external’ – that would need to be flipped and tweaked just a bit. Maybe to something internal and a sensation. Is a sensation a ‘material’ thing? Well, it ‘materializes’ for me! Internally! 🙂

Ahhh… trying to find the right words to describe the Divine has always been a struggle for us humans. We do our best with what we can/understand. We do our best for what we can cognize, personally. It’s a toughie but we are a persistent-folk! What feels like a ‘wave’ to me might feel like a different kind of vibration to someone else. I think that regardless of what words we individually find to describe our signs/signals, or even symptoms, the knowing is there. The knowing and awareness that we recognize for ourselves and in each other – the Divine, the upgrades, the ascension, the higher-vibes! At the very core of it all… words aren’t even necessary. Just feeling the love is all that is needed. 🙂

Keep integrating everyone! Integrate with absolute love! Feel the waves, swim in the deep, keep coming on-line and being plugged-in to the Divine! ❤

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April!

Things have been fairly calm the last couple of weeks, and there is nothing wrong with ‘calm’. 🙂

I did have a wonderful birthday at the end of March. I got to hang-out and get caught up with my favorite sister! She’s my favorite because she is my only sister.  🙂  This has nothing to do with sister-in-law’s, of which I have those. The sister – sister is a unique relationship. Our family consists of a lot of brothers and us two girls. So, it’s safe to say – we have a special bond.

We live so far apart that when we do get to spend some real quality time together – we stay up super late… every single night! You would think I would have gotten tired but I didn’t. I was in the throes of having fun, discussing the deepest of deep issues, eating chocolate and sampling wines (spread out over the week). It was a great b-day week for sure! I will admit… a couple days in, I was starting to look pretty haggard and I didn’t even care. Yup, pretty fun!

April is now here and good grief… half way over already! I knew time was speeding up but I could swear it was the first just two days ago! There has been the gradual increase in outside/yard work for us. More time outside now that the snow has receded enough to start digging in the dirt. It’s only going to keep increasing and becoming busier (in a good way)! I am so looking forward to the days of warm sunshine and cloudless nights (stars and meteor showers… right?!).

I’ve also been getting hit with creative inspirations that have me back-at-it in my art studio. I have been hit-and-miss this last/past year. I am feeling the creation-vibes really starting to juice back up. I know that most of the stop and go syndrome I had was due to a lot of the clearing, releasing and purging of some really dense blockages I was packing around. I find that with each bit of releasement of the ‘old’ I gain a new, fresh, perspective. With higher vibrational energies comes a series of thought patterns for my creative processes, my next creative inspired action, and that extension of myself. I’m also finding interest in places outside and beyond my ‘normal’; or what used to be my normal. And this is all very good!

I’m pretty sure, since 2019 has started, I went up another step on that giant staircase of ‘life’… I might have even gone up two! You know the one… it has thousands of steps to climb! However many steps I just climbed in these last couple of months – it has been feeling really good. Good, great and wonderful all the way to my core! My soul-core!

I know there has been some major shifting going on and I have been doing my best at integrating and assimilating. The adjustment period can be quick or it can be more drawn out. I have moments of both – depending on what I need and where I need it. I understand the pulsing running through my body, the body-rocks, and the ‘waves’. I understand the shifting of frequencies, ringing, and pitch going on in my ears. I understand the change in vision. I understand when I can see light-shadow and ‘orbs’ before my camera does! Yes, there are some really awesome shifts happening. And we are all adjusting differently. Allowing and not holding any resistance is what gets you to that ‘next step’ a little quicker. It’s been fun and some really cool things are manifesting for me.

As this month comes and goes… I will continue to remain open and keep working on myself. We’re never done… nope. There’s no going back even if I tried. But why the hell would I want to?! Yikes! Just thinking about all that low vibrational density I spent years cleaning up has me appreciate how far along I have come! It went from: looking back over a year (at the change and progress)… to: looking at change in a month! I know that the weekly change is coming. Heck – I might even be ‘in it’ now. Who knows when the ‘daily’ will show up?! My best guess… I’m already doing ‘dailies’ but I will notice it a week later! Hahaha! 🙂 Funny!

I just keep living in my ‘now’; working on myself, releasing what needs to go, then filling up with The Divine love and light. Chipping away at my ‘block’, I guess. And trying to remain in the happiness-zone. Not all days are perfect; and that’s okay too. It’s called being human. 🙂

Love and blessings!

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3-20 & 21

YES! Happy spring! It’s also the final of the five consecutive zero degrees full moons. Our zero-point!

All I can say is: wow! Wow! What an elevating/invigorating last few months around here. When I say here – I mean… Planet Earth! 🙂

The last time we had a full moon spring equinox was apparently back in March 1981. So… it’s been awhile. I guess it almost happened in 2000… but not quite. In ’81 I was 11… and when I crunch the numbers that would have been a ‘one’ year. It was a numerological year of new beginnings – and I would have not been paying attention to that. I didn’t really start getting into numerology until my 20’s.

At eleven I was living that carefree life of the youth. I was probably riding my bike along the ditch-bank roads, catching butterflies (yes, I had a net and everything!), reading books, and crafting something. Cross stitch and beading bracelets was where I was at as an eleven year old. Being consciously aware of trying to manifest my own abundance was not at the forefront. I was just: doing!

I was doing things that I loved! Doing those inspired actions. If I wanted to go bake a batch of cookies to share with family, I did. If I wanted to paint something, I did. If I wanted to make some jewelry, I did. You get the picture. If the uninhibited compulsion to do some fun activity struck me… I did it. No excuses. I went and did it. If the ‘stuff’ wasn’t there for me to do my main-goal, I went to plan ‘B’. I would manifest those impulsive ‘visions’ in my head/heart in some form or another. That freedom of being the child without (any apparent) blocks and ‘baggage’ was a liberating time (for me). I see it now. I see that there was ‘no resistance’ as a kid.

I didn’t have the built up blocks back then. Yes, they were definitely developing. Hahaha 🙂 I can laugh at it now because I have worked through some of them. But in those childhood moments – I didn’t care. That ‘being in the flow’ was what it’s all about. I am working on bringing this back into my life. I would love reclaiming that point of ‘no resistance’ again. I am working on it, definitely. Because I have a few different areas that I am addressing with myself… with each step of forgiveness, releasing, clearing and loving… I am moving into less resistance. This helps in the letting go and being in flow. I can look back over the last year and see noticeable improvements within my deep, childhood healing.

So… as I work on my childhood, it opens me up to my unlimited potential in my adulthood. That free-flowing, loving what I’m doing, having fun, inspired actions! And spring time has always been a great booster for energizing creativity! For me anyway.

This time around, with this amazing super full moon spring equinox, I am paying attention to the energies. I am also utilizing it probably way better than I did when I was 11. 🙂

Like any other spring equinox… it’s a fresh start, inspiration, newness and adventure! There is that warmth of the sun perking you right up and, yes, putting that spring in your step! On the surface this one might not be that much different. Except (it is!) it has new-energies ‘booster-blaster’ in it to help propel us further in our expansion, ascension, stepping into our truth… to BE our true selves! There’s an energy with this one that can be felt.

I’m totally okay with that! Even my eleven year old self even thinks that’s pretty cool! Keep integrating and adjusting to all these wonderful love-n-light Universal/Cosmic energies that are flooding us! Live from your heart, have fun, and manifest your abundance!
Happy spring and happy 3-3-‘3’ gateway!

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Chickies!

Is it spring yet?

Ummm….

For us, the farm-life ‘season’ (or year) doesn’t seem to really kick-off until our baby chicks arrive. There’s just something about these little babies that symbolize the start of the ‘new year’ for us. Maybe it’s because we only see miles and miles of white snow for months and these baby chicks are the spring-time ray of sunshine! Well… whatever it is…

Snow or not… here they come! And you gotta be ready for them.

So, this is what we are doing this week. Prepping for and then receiving our bundles of puff-ball joy.
Our baby chickens arrived this morning and this initiates the starting our year of farmin’. Was that redundant? Initiates the starting?? I must really mean it then! What’s funny is that I keep writing and leave it! Ha! 🙂

Anyway … Since we still have a couple feet of snow hanging around – these little guys will be sheltered inside until two things happen… one: they are big enough and have some feathers (or starting of feathers), and two: the snow has melted. At least enough to either provide bare ground or close enough so that we can provide some clear ground for them. I’m guessing it’s going to be a couple of weeks.

Keeping these little ones warm, dry, free from dangers, well hydrated and fed; along with clean bedding, is what you want to aim for while they grow. I am also always hoping that they all make it too. There is always that little ‘percentage’ of possible loss/mortality rate. I pray for healthy, strong, vital birds!
The brood-box is set up pretty nice and these guys have plenty of space while at the same time – warmth, food and water. It’s probably considered primo-real estate (in the chickie world).

Getting the babies nestled in their new digs can start the chain-of-events for all the other things we need to start doing in preparation for the year. Coops and repairs, building what can be built in the garage (while snow melts), and seedlings in the windows. Until we come out of this snow-fest (it did snow just 2 days ago… so, spring is not quite here yet) it will be indoorsy projects.

🙂

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3-3-‘3’

Happy mind, body, and spirit gateway-day! As a 3-3-3 portal it seems to have a few ways of being looked at; and I am noticing various ‘this and that’s’. Perspective, right? I am finding that however it is being conceptualized/translated it boils-down to the core energies/knowings of: Christ-consciousness, Ascended Masters/Spirit, and you/your soul/awakening, aligning, ascending and transforming.

I, personally (probably like many others), have a LOT going on right now. And I am noticing: hard-core!

Along with the myriad of gateways, portals, and cosmic events/happenings… this 3 year is pressing down on my gas-pedal. It is offering me another layer of energetic-action(s) because 3 is my life path number. A three life-path in a three-year… powerful stuff! Today is really feeling like a T-H-R-E-E punch! In a good way.

As if this wasn’t already enough for me to integrate, assimilate, and work-with I also am fully engaged into my Chiron return… in Aries! Do I have moments where I feel like I could implode? Uh… yes! Hahaha! 🙂

Seriously though, Chiron in Aries has me working-on and healing, releasing, clearing my wounding’s while this new energetic year of ‘3’ has me propelling forward.

Have I been busy at my core-level? Yes!

Does it have me feeling like I am all-over the place? Yes!

Am I needing naps (longer meditations or to sleep in) because the energies I continually integrate knock me on my ass? Yes!

Do I find myself in a pool of tears because I find, face, and forgive a deep wound/scar; while simultaneously feel love, joy and happiness that I am now free from it? Hell-Yes!

So… as this 3-3-3 day brings in another layer/level of intense vibrational upgrades – I have actually been feeling pretty energetic! BUT I know that at some point… I am going to get hit with a wave that will probably have me feeling K-O’d! (knocked out) 

I like having a portal-day pumping me up with energy and actually feeling: energetic! I will admit… they can be hit and miss. Some portals/gateways – have me completely vegging-out and feeling drained, exhausted. But I also have some that have me feeling amped, energetic, and inspired while getting lit-up from the beautiful love-Universe and Pure Source! I open to allow and receive.

However you comprehend what this triple 3 day means for you: (examples of) the Trinity… mind, body, spirit; beginning, middle, ending; the Father, the Son, and Holy Spirit… it is Divine. This is a day of Divine/Pure Source energies, frequencies, codes, upgrades, love, expansion, transformation, awakening, awareness, intuition, and that general deep, deep inner-soul-stuff! 🙂

Enjoy it! Feel it! Integrate it! Keep rockin’ your new-self on this new-earth!
Love and blessings ❤

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Grounding!

I had a moment of not being in my body today and I noticed how weird it was. I noticed how weird it was that I also noticed (how weird it was)!

I thought I was doing my normal grocery shopping task… and being: normal (or 3D, if you will). 🙂

To begin with, I will mention that doing the actual shopping – it seemed like I was kind-of mentally there but not really. All well and good, I guess. But when it came time to check out and pay for all my groceries… I suddenly felt really weird, I felt floaty, I felt wavy… I felt like I was observing myself stumbling along with trying to pay. I even recognized that ‘I feel like I am watching myself starring at this wallet’. Hmmm… weird. I feel a little… weird.

I watched myself look through a wallet that seemed suddenly foreign to me. What am I paying with? What are all these cards? Is this even my wallet? Yes… yes it is.

I found my card. I then had a brief moment with the terminal… WTF? What is with all the brain farts? After paying I head out to the car. I had another floaty-moment and stared at my car while I was trying to comprehend the unlocking of it. I suddenly found myself mentally walking through the steps, visualizing in my mind, of getting into my car! I then realized… shit… I am so-not-grounded! I need to ground, and do it now!

I might have even blurted this out loud in the parking lot… I can’t remember. I just knew I was going to ground into Gaia right then and there! I gave myself a brief moment of standing between my open car door and the cart… feeling Gaia under my feet and sending my grounding cord down. Seconds later I was telling myself to grab each bag, one at a time. Feel the weight, notice them, and arrange them in the car… I was focusing-in on the moment… the ‘now’.

This was good. I was feeling ‘better’ by the time I was all done and back in the driver seat! By ‘better’ I am meaning – like I was ‘all there’ again and felt like I was back on earth! The drive home even felt different. Which tells me I left the house totally floaty and ungrounded. Accidents happen when you aren’t grounded.

This was definitely a reminder that I need to ground more frequently than I used to; and probably should be making it a daily conscious effort! The Gaia energies and 5D transformation(s) have had me all over the place lately. Things are speeding up and if my 5D DNA is taking me there/with her… I need to make it a point to practice grounding-in way more than I did… even just a few months ago!

I know I am living in a duality-space right now. This place and space between worlds is becoming something I can sense (and pick up on) a little faster with each time I find myself in the ‘between’. I am just guessing that those of us in ascension-mode probably have some of the same things happening but also very different!

I might even be in that bubble where it used to be: ground so you can meditate and ‘take yourself there’ while making sure you are connecting to Gaia. But lately I feel there is a flipping going on where it’s: ground because you are already ‘there’, regardless of meditation(s), and you still need to keep your connection to Gaia! I don’t know if that makes sense. It’s probably going to get harder and harder to describe what is going on/happening – as I keep upgrading and going 5D. Stuff can get indescribable.

There is probably no words in our planetary-human-vocabulary that can even come close to the Divine energies one can feel, sense, experience, cognize, integrate and assimilate.

So… on that note… I guess this is a heads up that my future journaling’s will probably consist of made-up words and concepts in order to try to describe the sensations, energies, physical shifting, and awareness-es. 🙂

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Procrastination

On this energetic day of 2’s…

I just wanted to post a quote that became an instant favorite of mine.

It’s from Abraham Hicks, and it just resonated with me… it brought a smile to my face; as those who know me – know I can be a chronic-procrastinator. Well, maybe ‘chronic’ is too harsh of a word because it’s not all the time. I have moments or blocks-of-time where I seem to be more procrastinating than others. I’ve even openly admitted this in my writings here.

Procrastination, in my life (and probably for most), has a 3D label surrounding it: ‘lazy’. I always found that to be an irritating way to try to describe something that one just doesn’t have the deepest desire to do (right away). It’s not like I don’t want to do it… it’s just that I don’t have the energies to deal with it at that time (whatever that may be). I have always had an interesting relationship with ‘procrastination’ and I know this is part of my healing journey here.

My inner-knowing has always been letting me know that… it just isn’t really that important at this time. While those around me – the ones who think time is actually real (thinking linear) – feel I should be getting all things done, and getting them done yesterday! 🙂 I don’t let their issues with procrastination bother me. Because, really, it’s also about perception of what procrastination is (individually).

So, yes, I know this is ‘self-inflicted’ and I’m working through this area/issue – while I work-on and clean-up my childhood wounds. And… as I do-this… the quick little quote from Abraham Hicks explains it well:

What is the definition of procrastination?
It means: I can feel within my energy sensor that this action is not in perfect alignment at this time!

**Nailed-it! 🙂

All things Abraham Hicks can be checked out here:

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