Observation-mode

So, I’ve had a hankerin’ for some classic movies lately. Does classic mean the 60’s anymore? Or does it mean anything older than 10 years? I’m voting for the 10 year mark. Heck, there’s stuff from 5 years ago – already considered ‘classic’. I guess, as time is speeding up – the gap that creates classics would get smaller too. Instant classic also comes to mind. Regardless of how I am trying to categorize it – the movie I watched was definitely an oldie-but-goodie. What’s interesting about it this time – is that I am really seeing the parallels in it with ‘real life’. I don’t think I really looked at it in this way before. It was always just… entertainment.

It’s ‘The Truman Show’ (starring Jim Carrey) it came out back in 1998. I have seen it a few times over the years. But the difference between the 7 or 8 years ago (when I’m thinking I last saw it) to watching it last week… huge! It is still entertainment… but oh how oddly realistic it kind-of is.

If you haven’t seen this cute film, maybe give it a chance.

As I was watching this with new perspective I kept noticing how ‘that’s so us’! Us, the human race. We are all in the dome of make believe. Lots of similarities – from living a programmed 3D life to our little awakening moments that lead us to a better ‘enlightenment’. Being ‘watched’, guided, and having things orchestrated via the Universe to create synchronicities. Sure, this all varies from person to person but the gist of it is still the same. We are asleep – until we wake up! I just thought it was kind-of funny how I didn’t notice that correlation before. But then, I was in waking-mode when I saw it last. Sometimes you need to be past something before being fully aware of it. When you are in it – you might not know you are in it.

Kind of like… now. The wave of awakening that is happening now has many people not even knowing they are awakening. They just know something is changing, different, or they are beginning to click with new thoughts/how they think. This works in conjunction with how they feel, getting in touch with emotions, or just general deeper pondering that they have probably been avoiding (for years or maybe all their life). There are a lot of ‘Truman’s’ awakening. And yes this is good n’ great, but some can wake up swinging arms and punching air! There can be confusion, panic, freak-outs, and just general misunderstanding.

As an energy/lightworker I feel that it really is part of our job to be the calming voice, maybe ‘voice of reason’, from the perspective of already being on the other side of this (the things we all go through, been through, experienced and learned from in our own processes). We are here to help as this wave comes rushing in and through. The person(s) receiving the help might not realize it in that moment but it will click somewhere down the line for them. It’s not our job to pull and yank anyone by the hand and force them to process quickly. We just need to be the light, patience, love, and understanding.

We are all on our own journey’s here. We have things we want to do/be individually… but also as a collective group (as we build into our unity-consciousness). Being patient with someone while they work-through their own crap is beneficial to the parties involved as well as the group (all of us) as a whole.

Remember to be understanding with the Truman’s in your life. They might be feeling confusion, a ‘stuck-ness’, lonely, bored, sad, agitated, lost, struggling, bouts of anger, maybe even some depression. Things are coming up for them, being shown to them, repeating for them. We are all having this – at some level. Mine… have gotten a little easier and, I will say, more obvious! It might be the next day when it becomes obvious… but to me – that’s fast! There is something to be said for ‘sleeping on it’. I love working on things in my dream-time. It has taken a few years – but I can recognize a block/obstacle way faster than I did even just a year ago. It comes with awareness, intuition, observation, tuning-in, allowing Source to assist, being conscious, loving yourself, having a more positive mind-set, and knowing that this 3D matrix is for learning.

In school, did we all fester on an algebra problem we just couldn’t grasp? Did we embed it into our physical body or sub-conscious somewhere and wait for it to bubble up later in life? No. We learned how to approach it, adjusted the ‘math’ for our capabilities, solved the equation and moved on. It was something we took care of right away so we could be done with it. We aren’t packing around this algebra problem with us for the rest of our lives, so it can pop-up at the worst possible moment, making us work through it again. OR… maybe you are. Some people love math and do pack around equations. I, however, do not. The moral of this math analogy is… We can do this ‘problem solving’ with earthly issues that tend to fester for us. Things that we DID pack away (usually from our childhood) – we can bring them up, acknowledge what it was here to teach, approach it in an observational-mode, and then ‘get the lesson’. Thank it, love it, forgive it – if need be – and let it go. Solve your math problem… Be done with it!

Yes, it’s that: wanting to bring it up part.

A lot of people don’t want to bring it up. Sorry… but you will have to. You cannot grow and evolve without taking a look. A good, close, look. These are your lessons. If you aren’t done with them – they keep coming at you. Over and over and over…. Man, I am exhausted just thinking about it! How do people live like this? How was I living like this? Oh, that’s right… I was snoooooozing! Being sleepy or, for some, completely asleep keeps everything buried. If it comes up… give it a quick WTF?, then ignore it, and re-bury it! Hurry… before anyone notices! Bury it deeper this time!

This process will no longer work.

Maybe these are zombie-issues. They just keep creeping up from their depths, attack you for a while until you kill it and then re-bury it! Oh my… sometimes I wonder how I can go from a Truman-like movie thought process to a Zombie-like movie… hmmm. It’s all related, right?

And on that note…

It’s Lion gateway time! The 8-8 is right around the corner. What an awesome time to bring up some trauma you have had packed away. Yes, bring it up and take a look. Ask it questions, wait for answers. Communicate with it. It wants to show you, teach you, and help you in your growth. You don’t have to solve it in one day. If it was a doozie, approach it in baby steps. The fact that you are ready to learn is already: step one.

Be patient with yourself, but also be diligent. You have to keep working at it/on it until you have truly cleared it. If it comes back around, when you thought you were done, then – you aren’t done. Keep taking a look. The more of an observer you can be – the better. It can be difficult to see things when you are too emotionally there. With time, practice, and the true love you have for yourself – to work on yourself, you will start seeing things more clearly. With true clarity comes the cleansing.

Sounds funny-weird… but I would think that when the true wave of awakening is in full swing… there is going to be so much crying and cleansing going on – there will be no time for drama! Think about it.

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7-16 Lunar Fun!

Yup, our last lunar eclipse for the year. It’s partial, and it’s tonight.
My thoughts on this one…

Well, since this is the other slice of bread to the sandwich that was ‘eclipse season’…

I. am. tired! I have felt pretty drained since the solar eclipse that was on the 2nd. It also seems to be more of a mental-drain than an all-out physical one. I do my best to take-care and pay attention to what my body is saying to me. Some days are better than others.

I would tend to think that a LOT of us are feeling this planetary-cosmic-Universal potpourri of goings-on’s right now! I mean – geesh… eclipses and retrogrades and ramping up towards the Lion’s Gate portal (er… Sirius Day!) 🙂 I am definitely going to take a soak in some Epsom salts.

Cleaning, clearing and releasing will be going on for a while but as long as it IS going on – things will continually/consistently improve. There is no going backwards. I have probably said this before but it is true. Some work is better than no work. Sure, there might be (what feels like) some stagnant times but it is still the process of moving forward. That’s the beauty of trusting and Divine timing… sometimes slow and steady wins the race; whatever ‘race’ you are in for that particular moment/issue/situation.

I love being out on Gaia right now. What I mean by that is – being in the yard, my garden, outside in general. Soaking up the sun and sending it love for the beautiful rays-of-light that powers me up! I feel like I could go to sleep under the sun for days and just… absorb and integrate! Sounds crazy probably – but I have thought about it! 🙂  The thought of sizzling out there does make me NOT want to do that though. So, instead of the sleeping – I do the yard work. I just want to be out – in it!

I am also finding myself doing some cleaning up around here. Just wanting things to be ‘fresh and clean’. I have been neglecting the house this last month and it was starting to show. You know… because I just want to be outside.

So… eclipse, retrogrades, swirling, twirling everything… Cleaning, cleaning, cleaning!

Yup, I would say – the energies are pretty high right now and those that don’t understand are probably the most confused by it all. I remind myself to be patient and be in observation-mode while they go through… whatever it is they need to go through. It’s not up to me to get them to the answer, they need to find their own answer. But I can only hope that I might be able to offer a word or two of a different perspective. When I hear a response of: ‘I never thought of it that way’- then I know that they will now continue on, with their processing, with a new puzzle piece. There’s no judgement, no could-a/should-a’s, no you’re doing it all wrongs… just a different perspective coming from an observation. I think most are needing this kind of love right now. The non-judgmental kind.

It’s hard not to ‘judge’ because we have all been programmed to do so; with each other and mostly ourselves. Man, we’re so hard on ourselves! If we are constantly judging and comparing and self-loathing – then how can we be anything above that for others? I mean, really? It becomes fake. It is fake. We really need to be checking-in with ourselves first. Self-love is the new black. When you really dig deep and start caring for yourself as the one-true-love… it will open your world! It is absolute freedom!

And… because I truly love and respect myself – I will be soaking in an Epsoms salts bath on this amazing full moon partial lunar eclipse evening! I will be aiding my physical body in the removal of… whatever needs to be removed! Clean, clean, clean… right? 🙂

Here’s to moving forward! To going onward and upward! Love yourself so that you can be love, come from love, and share the love!

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7-2 New Moon Solar Eclipse

Happy New Moon Solar Eclipse!

For me (where I live) – it’s at 12:22. Pretty cool that it’s on the ‘2’ day. I, personally, have been seeing a lot of 12:22 on the good ole clock this past month or so. Actually – I have been noticing a combo of 1’s and 2’s. I always find it fun, interesting, and know the guidance from the Universe is with me. ❤

I won’t be able to view this one (not for America). But I will be taking ‘pause’ during its peaking-moments to feel its vibes! This should be a pretty intense portal but in a positive way. Like them eclipses always do… they help us bring stuff to the surface so we can take a look at it – then clean it up and purge (if need-be). This one will probably feel deeply emotional (it is a Cancer/water one).

I believe that this one will have us working on our fears. What keeps us and holds us back, the things we tend to do/think that keeps us in a limited way-of-being. These little buggars will most likely be bubbling up this month. They probably have been showing up already. This is the perfect month to clear and transform this stuff! Reset! Rebirth! Renew! All those ‘re’-sons we tell ourselves (stop ourselves/block ourselves) need to go bye-bye. The day(s) of self-sabotage and self-doubt (fears/limits) need to be dissolving. Don’t you think? I do!

I have been working on this area within myself for a while. I gotta say – it doesn’t happen overnight. But it DOES start to get weaker within your thought patterns; transforms as you build your strength. As you become stronger within your heart-space and open up to more love, light and trusting yourself/inner-knowing… the fear(s) dissolve; especially as you work on the resolve. Some fears/doubts do take longer than others… they have been deeply programmed after all. It’s okay. Cut yourself some slack as you clean yourself up. At least you are working on it. And any time you work on improvement it advances (sometimes propels) you forward. Let the power(s) of any and all eclipses help assist you. 🙂

Love and blessings,
Enjoy the magnificent energies of today (and this month)!

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Summer… Yay!

Happy Summer Solstice! 

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Stopping in real quick to acknowledge this wonderful portal day!
I will be outside working the earth, this beautiful Gaia, by being in the garden, the yard/the house, and (of course) with the animals! It’s a busy time for me (for us here on our homestead) but I love every minute of it! I do love summer! 🙂

As always – this is a great portal day to be grounded while setting your intentions for your wonderful reality! Bring yourself, attract to you, the awesome reality that you want to be living! Visualize, meditate (not mandatory – but sure does help. Also – visualizing IS a meditation), and actively take steps towards it. These can be small baby steps; and even – take baby steps towards and for the baby step!

Take it easy on yourself and don’t be harsh towards your inner-monologue if you aren’t seeing anything huge manifesting (timing is a Divine-thing). Most of the time it’s the little things. Develop your awareness in all the little things. When you tune in to this – you began to see the synchronicities… then you will develop trust in these. It grows from there! See… what a simple baby step, am-I-Right?? 🙂   I bet you didn’t even realize you were manifesting?

It comes with awareness, tuning in, then trust… You got this!!
Be open to receive the Divine wisdom, the love and the light that already is: you!

Love and blessings! ❤

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May

Did I just pass an entire month without writing anything?

I think I did! This month sped by me and here it is… the last day(s). It’s okay though. It’s been a super-busy month and not blogging anything is absolutely forgiven! 🙂 hahaha

It has been a month of getting things going, or done, around here. Many projects along with the balance of a few family outings and enjoying nature – or a cute little coastal town. I feel like the physical labor (of homesteading) has taken up most of my days these last few weeks. And rightfully so. I am trying to get my garden prepped and plants in! The growing season is short here. Some days I feel like its all prep work just in time to pull it all out because we creeped into fall.

Anyway… summing up the month of May: it was good.

I haven’t been noticing anything ascensionly-major, within my earthly realm, to really take notes on. Hahaha… is that even a word? Ascensionly? It is now! 🙂   I know I have been so physically busy outside and then exhausted by the time bedtime rolls around I am either: not noticing or I am noticing – but it seems kind-of normal to me now. It’s not a big deal and I keep carrying on. I would consider that – good integration. I recognize, allow, apply, integrate (maybe not always in that order)… and keep moving on while I am working in my ‘world’. It’s all good, yes, very good.

I have to mention, that this month – I have really enjoyed listening to body healing guided meditations while I am passing-out. I am loving these things. Playing them right off that good ole you-tube. I’m sure there are other ways of accessing these – but that is the route I am currently using. Kindle + you tube app = a wonderful meditation while falling asleep!

There’s a good reason why I am choosing the body healing. I need it! On all levels. From actual physical ailments (of injuries), current hormonal fluctuations (perimenopause), to the daily beatings I am giving my physical body right now (gardening/shoveling/digging/lifting/hauling/work-work-work). I would recommend these to anyone looking for some calming healing body talk and re-assurance. I do feel like I am getting some good sleep. And we all know that good sleep promotes better all-over-wellness.

There’s an array of people offering some great meditations on that platform. And I am thankful/grateful for all those that are offering their amazing talents (for free). Thank you to those of you doing this. Love and gratitude goes out to you! There’s more than body healing, the variety is practically endless. Need a calming or an enlightening meditation? Click on over to the you tube and listen to something. Meditation isn’t just that stereo-typical yoga-pose and absolute silence. It has evolved and it can be guided. If you just want music with no one guiding you … there is that too. Binaural beats, solfeggio, higher frequency tones, shamanic, and even angelic – it’s like being a kid in a candy store! So fun!

My current faves are: Unlock Your Life, Meditations by Rasa, Steve Nobel (The Soul Matrix), Progressive Hypnosis, Om Shaanti… just to name a few. There really is something for everyone!
Get your ear-buds on and happy meditating everyone!

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Riding the Waves

This morning as I sit in the quiet and journal… I can’t help but to notice that my ears are plugged, again. It’s more like: they are giving the sensation of plugging and un-plugging. Add this to the ever-present subtle ringing always going on in the back ground… It’s interesting.

The sensations/feelings of being underwater have been going on, for me, probably a few weeks now. I don’t remember exactly when this started happening but I know that when something/sensations start to repeat (become more constant) – I take notice. My ears need to be ‘popped’ but there probably isn’t a way to do that considering this isn’t your typical 3D rise and fall in elevation. It is, however, probably related to the rise in my vibration/5D with no ordinary ‘falling’ back down into, what used to be, the bottom/sea-level. Anyone who has experienced the popping-of-ones-ears due to going up and down hills/mountains/elevation knows what this feels like. Somewhere, and at some time, back at ground-level your ears will pop or eventually clear out. I am waiting for the ‘clearing out’. 🙂

I do like that it isn’t affecting me in any other way that the 3D/density-way would. I can hear fine, I can hear clearly. I am not having any equilibrium issues, or problems with balance. No headaches, head pressures, or overall chronic yawning (that can come with ear-popping). None of those things that can actually throw someone off a bit in their functioning. It’s not bad at all; just noticeable and sometimes a little weird/different and very new.

Weird happens when the additional sensation of a wave comes over me. Energetic waves will pulse through my body – from head to toe. Subtle inner-core vibrations that have their moments of intensity – but nothing that would knock me on my butt. The only way I can describe this is being under water or at the edge of the ocean/the beach when that water is coming up to shore and washes over you… a wave. I don’t mind this at all. I have even begun to smile when it happens.

I know that this is a new ascension ‘symptom’ for me and is serving a purpose as my DNA is adjusting, upgrading and coming on-line; as my physical body integrates, as I continue to receive and absorb all this new energy. My new body.

Symptom… I don’t know if that is a truly accurate word for what happens to me anymore. Symptom sounds like something you are ‘coming down with’ or negatively affected by; or chronic. I want to find a new word to describe all the great 5D upgraded changes/re-adjustments/recalibrations going on. There probably already is one; and ‘upgrade’ is probably it. Maybe I will leave the word symptom for any of those more physically ‘ailing’ things – the things that come up for me to heal. Deep wounding and scars that have ‘symptoms’ because I have been carrying it around for so long. Almost chronic… but not quite.

Even the definition of the word symptom has a negative connotation to it. Here’s the Merriam-Webster definition: subjective evidence of disease or physical disturbance: something that indicates the presence of bodily disorder.
That just doesn’t sound like what my integration of upgrades and activations is all about. Since words carry a vibration – I would like to find a word that is a little more pleasing. Clicking around the dictionary website I was trying to find something that is similar but not such a ‘debbie-downer’, if ya know what I mean…

The simple word of ‘sign’, or even ‘signal’, was a word I came across. It has a nice ring to it. There are some similarities but the definition has a more upbeat vibe, I feel.

Sign: a motion or gesture by which a thought is expressed or a command or wish made known. Also has the definition of: something material or external that stands for or signifies something spiritual; something indicating the presence or existence of something else.

Signal: to notify by a signal; to communicate or indicate by or as if by signals; distinguished from the ordinary.

These both would work. For the sign definition where it states ‘something material or external’ – that would need to be flipped and tweaked just a bit. Maybe to something internal and a sensation. Is a sensation a ‘material’ thing? Well, it ‘materializes’ for me! Internally! 🙂

Ahhh… trying to find the right words to describe the Divine has always been a struggle for us humans. We do our best with what we can/understand. We do our best for what we can cognize, personally. It’s a toughie but we are a persistent-folk! What feels like a ‘wave’ to me might feel like a different kind of vibration to someone else. I think that regardless of what words we individually find to describe our signs/signals, or even symptoms, the knowing is there. The knowing and awareness that we recognize for ourselves and in each other – the Divine, the upgrades, the ascension, the higher-vibes! At the very core of it all… words aren’t even necessary. Just feeling the love is all that is needed. 🙂

Keep integrating everyone! Integrate with absolute love! Feel the waves, swim in the deep, keep coming on-line and being plugged-in to the Divine! ❤

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April!

Things have been fairly calm the last couple of weeks, and there is nothing wrong with ‘calm’. 🙂

I did have a wonderful birthday at the end of March. I got to hang-out and get caught up with my favorite sister! She’s my favorite because she is my only sister.  🙂  This has nothing to do with sister-in-law’s, of which I have those. The sister – sister is a unique relationship. Our family consists of a lot of brothers and us two girls. So, it’s safe to say – we have a special bond.

We live so far apart that when we do get to spend some real quality time together – we stay up super late… every single night! You would think I would have gotten tired but I didn’t. I was in the throes of having fun, discussing the deepest of deep issues, eating chocolate and sampling wines (spread out over the week). It was a great b-day week for sure! I will admit… a couple days in, I was starting to look pretty haggard and I didn’t even care. Yup, pretty fun!

April is now here and good grief… half way over already! I knew time was speeding up but I could swear it was the first just two days ago! There has been the gradual increase in outside/yard work for us. More time outside now that the snow has receded enough to start digging in the dirt. It’s only going to keep increasing and becoming busier (in a good way)! I am so looking forward to the days of warm sunshine and cloudless nights (stars and meteor showers… right?!).

I’ve also been getting hit with creative inspirations that have me back-at-it in my art studio. I have been hit-and-miss this last/past year. I am feeling the creation-vibes really starting to juice back up. I know that most of the stop and go syndrome I had was due to a lot of the clearing, releasing and purging of some really dense blockages I was packing around. I find that with each bit of releasement of the ‘old’ I gain a new, fresh, perspective. With higher vibrational energies comes a series of thought patterns for my creative processes, my next creative inspired action, and that extension of myself. I’m also finding interest in places outside and beyond my ‘normal’; or what used to be my normal. And this is all very good!

I’m pretty sure, since 2019 has started, I went up another step on that giant staircase of ‘life’… I might have even gone up two! You know the one… it has thousands of steps to climb! However many steps I just climbed in these last couple of months – it has been feeling really good. Good, great and wonderful all the way to my core! My soul-core!

I know there has been some major shifting going on and I have been doing my best at integrating and assimilating. The adjustment period can be quick or it can be more drawn out. I have moments of both – depending on what I need and where I need it. I understand the pulsing running through my body, the body-rocks, and the ‘waves’. I understand the shifting of frequencies, ringing, and pitch going on in my ears. I understand the change in vision. I understand when I can see light-shadow and ‘orbs’ before my camera does! Yes, there are some really awesome shifts happening. And we are all adjusting differently. Allowing and not holding any resistance is what gets you to that ‘next step’ a little quicker. It’s been fun and some really cool things are manifesting for me.

As this month comes and goes… I will continue to remain open and keep working on myself. We’re never done… nope. There’s no going back even if I tried. But why the hell would I want to?! Yikes! Just thinking about all that low vibrational density I spent years cleaning up has me appreciate how far along I have come! It went from: looking back over a year (at the change and progress)… to: looking at change in a month! I know that the weekly change is coming. Heck – I might even be ‘in it’ now. Who knows when the ‘daily’ will show up?! My best guess… I’m already doing ‘dailies’ but I will notice it a week later! Hahaha! 🙂 Funny!

I just keep living in my ‘now’; working on myself, releasing what needs to go, then filling up with The Divine love and light. Chipping away at my ‘block’, I guess. And trying to remain in the happiness-zone. Not all days are perfect; and that’s okay too. It’s called being human. 🙂

Love and blessings!

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