The Lull of January

I usually have a tendency to say: wow, where did ‘that’ month go? But for some reason… with January, I don’t think I ever say that.
It’s usually – man, this month is just dragging-on! So… slow!

I know it’s because we have those brutal, cold, grey, buried-under-snow kind of January’s. I’m sure that if I was a winter-time outdoorsy, activity, kind of person – I would just be loving this month. It would be endless fun! Thus making the month seem like it went by in a flash.

No… I am not a winter-time kind of gal. Not my favorite. Spring, summer, and fall – yes, please! And to be even more specific: summer that is transitioning into fall! Just love that ‘pocket’ of time… there is something about it that feels wonderful to me. Maybe it’s the harvesting, canning things, making things… just… love it.

For many years I had kiddos heading back to school in September and that developed into another (different) ‘new year’ kind of vibe for me. When they went off to start their new-year I usually tried to do the same. Many times it was taking classes myself or starting something new. Getting into a new craft, or project, or if it was a super bountiful garden/harvest year – there was canning and having fun with recipes, etc. The difference between these two ‘new years’ tends to be: the fall is a more active and hands-on; where in January, the actual calendar new year, tends to be more mental and visual/organizing of thoughts and goals.

The winter tends to bring on that cabin-fever feeling, a little bit of hunker-down and stay inside. Even though I have projects I could be working on, I can feel a little slow at getting up the energy to do those sometimes. Not enough daylight? Probably. Burnt out from months of holidays? Maybe.

But back to January… the one thing I do like about this month – is that it is a start of a new calendar year. This, in itself, brings on new plans, dreams, aspirations and intentions for the rest of the months to follow. I find myself doing a lot of visualizing and day-dreaming about some things I’d love to see happen – or get started. Fresh vision board(s), loosely listed goals with bullet points, setting intentions to work on (or build up) a new (good/healthy) habit… there’s a lot of dreamy but organizing thoughts going on right now.

When February starts – and gets rollin’ – I feel like it’s one more month until spring! Although there are years, here, where spring doesn’t come until May (ouch! but true). So, it’s the little mental game I play with myself – to just keep ticking off the days of dead-winter until I see the grasses of spring. I’m sure I’m not the only one who does this; there’s a lot of us non-winter-types living in places maybe we shouldn’t be. 🙂 I gotta admit that lately, I find myself, dreaming of a more southern location to reside during winter time. Hmmm… maybe I should get that up on my vision board! 🙂

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My Thank You Card to 2018

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Well, I made it through the 2018 (Master 11) year and I feel pretty good about that ‘batch’.

The batch of inner-works that would present themselves to me for: acknowledging, appreciating, loving, learning from, cleaning, clearing, and releasing. So much work has been done!

Thank you 2018! I appreciate and am thankful for all you have brought to me and have shown me. For the opportunities, the choices, the decisions and the love in all of it! (That Spiritual/Divine love)

The first part of the year seemed light compared to the end of the year. But that’s to be expected (and normal) as one keeps plugging along in their growth, expansion, and evolution.

I look forward to 2019 and all it will be offering me as I stay open to receive; learn more, keep digging deeper… with more recognition and acknowledgements; more acceptance, more loving, more clearing and more releasing. You’re never done! It’s just moving up another step.

When you start clearing clutter – you make room for everything that is Divinely yours. I am meaning: for you to be more aware and trusting, to notice it faster, accept it faster, manifest easier. Too many ‘blocks‘ in place cause a lag in your ‘collecting’ of all that is yours! I look forward to the opportunities of 2019… whatever they may be; because with that – is more choices and decisions to make. Decisions that can take me even higher towards the vibrations of pure love and pure light. It’s all soul path progression towards soul purpose and evolution.

Yes, thank you 2018. You were (sometimes) a bumpy ride but overall a good one!

Love and Blessings!

…and here’s to an awesomely, amazing, wonderful 2019!! Cheers!

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Merry Christmas!

‘Dear Diary’,

I am thankful for this quiet little Christmas at home.
It’s just us this year… our family unit.
This is nice…

I love hearing the laughter of my kiddos, the goofiness, the fun! I am grateful that we like hanging out together: playing games/cards, baking and cooking, talking… from the joking to the deep discussions. There’s always snow to shovel (oh yes!); and on a good snow-year… sledding down our hillside! There’s Christmas movies to watch and sometimes – an art project or two! It doesn’t need to be ‘busy’ for us to be together; we can relax in the same room and not have to say a word. It’s true comfort and… joy!

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This kind-of reminds me of the writing assignments we would have back in school: What does Christmas mean to you?

And…inspired by what I just wrote:

Christmas is love, it’s true. Love for family and friends; family traditions: baking treats and cooking. Decorating the tree and hanging lights. The gratitude and thankfulness for gifts given and received. Hanging out and having fun! Spending time together and want to! This is all great!

It also has a deeper meaning:

Christmas is also… Christ consciousness and raising our vibration. Coming from our heart and approaching things/situations at a higher, Divine, perspective. Being the creator that you are, being the joy and happiness that you carry in your heart. Sharing and caring (ya, I know… a little rhymey but true).

Gratitude, appreciation, being thankful… mixed with some nurturing, care, kindness and even forgiveness. From Christmas to New Year’s – this is all heightened this time of year (for most). I realize not everyone is into-the-holidays and the good cheer, the happy moods, the wanting to give. It has different meanings for everyone. But I, for one, love this time of year!

I couldn’t let this day, this holiday, pass without vibrationally sending out my love, gratitude and genuine joy and happiness! If this reads like a greeting card… well, I was going to say ‘sorry about that’. But then realized – I’m not sorry because it kind-of is: a greeting card, from me to the Universe!

Love and Blessings to all,

Peace & Merry Christmas!


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12-21 – Full Moon & December

With this busy time of year – getting in some time to journal can be a toughie.

I always make time to jot down a few things about my day, every day. Some days are more detailed than others – but that’s okay. I’m making sure I journal my… any-things, a something! From the smallest-gratitude to the most recent/current physical symptom (or happenings) – I have really developed a love for journaling.

It’s the typical story: didn’t really journal, then dabbled in it, it was hit-and-miss; then decided I would commit to it. Made it a daily habit, started out small but grew to make it a scheduled habit. When I began to make it a part of my daily routine… it really started sticking and developing into something that, now, if I don’t do it – it feels ‘off’. There are many times when I journal about Monday on Tuesday type of thing… but I am still – not missing a day.

As this year winds-down and is coming to its close… it is fun, and interesting, to look back over my journaling’s to see how far I have progressed. What a year! I am so grateful and thankful for everything I have accomplished: internally and externally! I will have to say though – the internal work was definitely challenging and way-more rewarding than anything I could have done outside of me. I am grateful for getting over some of the hurdles that were presented to me throughout this past year. I want to work on this stuff; I want to clear-the-crap, I want to learn from lessons, and have growth because of it all. Every time I can work through something and clear it – release it, I feel lighter. And I know this is all part of the work that needs to be done right now.

There’s that saying (about material things): you can’t take it with you when you die. Well, about the: emotional/programmed/negative-beliefs/trauma/past-life stuff… I don’t want to take that with me any-more – when I die! (Lots of past-lives for me.) I am done with it all and am working on peeling it off of me! Yes, this is quite the project but I am worth it! We ALL need to feel and believe (and KNOW) we are worth it!

This past year has been about shaking the fruit off the tree (for a lot of people). Those that are awake and those that are awakening now – this year was a big-pulsing-in-your-face-alarm-clock going off. 5D is now! This is happening whether any one likes it or not! And, damn, I am super-stoked about it! 🙂

This week of the Solstice Gateway, finishing up on 12-21, along with the actual Winter Solstice and the full moon… it’s almost practically synching up! These energies are so close together I’m probably going to feel something crack or pop inside of me! It might be dizzying. I remind myself to stay grounded! And I remind myself to ‘take care’.

I am still doing some ‘physical purging’ – things have happened to me (since 11-11-‘11’) that I haven’t felt/experienced in probably ten years! They also appear random – but I know they are not. A random bloody nose (I never get these), a random throwing-up (this one is rare for me, I hardly ever do this)… I am feeling totally fine, feel normal/healthy/no other symptoms – these just ‘came on’. Weird, yes, but I also felt better when they were done. I have had weird moments of wobbly balance, for example: walking ‘into a door’ when I clearly should have gone right through the center! There’s a few other oddities but these are examples of my ‘interesting’ month. I know that old, toxic/negative ‘stuff’ is being cleansed from me right now. I have even been doing this particular kind of work/meditating these last couple of months. So, I figured I would see/experience something (of a cleansing-nature).

I actually have been doing this cleaning/clearing work for a couple of years but for some reason… right now, it feels different. It feels like I am getting past (and have gotten past) the surface-layers and finally getting to the core. Deep, deep emotional/ego cleaning. Really bringing up and removing the density. Clearing old patterns/programs, lineage/dark-negative lineage, toxins/viruses… just all kinds – of cleaning, clearing, cutting/removing chords and hooks. As I keep integrating more light – this stuff has to leave. It cannot stay; there is no room for it, no need for it, there is no advancing/evolving with it still attached. I never thought I would be ‘bowing-to-the-porcelain-god’, out of the blue, to purge something from me – this never crossed my mind (side-note: I hate… hate this body-function. I appreciate it for its purpose when really needed; unless I have a stomach flu – but even then… no thank you! Of all the functions our bodies can do/provide – throwing up is my number 1 most un-liked. I will do everything and anything to NOT go through this)! This one… shocked-me! But the feeling of literally and figuratively unloading something (I don’t know what it was and I don’t need to) I was feeling better after; and in 24 hours I was feeling great! I just felt… great!

I really don’t know why I am writing about my bodily functions, but at the same time – this is what is really going on. This is what is happening. Ignoring it, pretending it’s not going on, is not the answer. I know that others are experiencing weird purging’s too. We all need to dump some stuff so we can keep ascending into our 5D (and beyond) bodies. Awakening and ascending is not all pretty rainbows and butterflies. There is some serious heavy-lifting some of us need to do, there’s trench crawling, and working our way out of muddy, mucky, gunk. And the more times you have incarnated on this planet (the more past lives you have had) the more work to be done. I, for one, am an old soul. I have been here a lot! I have been working on clearing stuff for a few years and there has been a lot of crying-sessions. I am not done crying (although I have gotten better at what used to ‘set me off’ and I know it’s because I have worked through it) and I am not done clearing. But knowing that I have moved into the phase of some truly physically purging and releasing things from me, in a weird way, is nice.

The rest of December might be smooth, it might not. I don’t know. I do know that I will continue to give myself some time every day to just be with myself. If it’s 5 minutes or if it’s more – it’s part of the self-care and nurturing that is required at this time. The energies are going to keep ramping up. Before we know it – it will be January and the total lunar eclipse (on the 20/21st) will be introducing us to another new layer of energies.

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Keep taking care, keep loving (yourself and others), keep clearing/releasing, keep bringing in the light – fill yourself with it! If you are one that celebrates Christmas, and will be with family, remain in your heart. It may or may not be challenging; just remember that everyone is feeling this energy right now. It’s just that there are a lot of people that don’t know why – or what – is ‘going on’. They just walk around with emotions on the surface; might be quick to anger (because they are being triggered by their own deeper emotions), they might seem confused or disoriented. They might be feeling sick – on various levels. Stuff (things/actions or words said) can trigger people right now. Stay in your heart while they go through their motion/emotion. If you can be an observer… that’s even better! Things also might come back around for you (‘this again?!’). Why? Why is this visiting again? It’s there for you to do something different this time, and from a higher perspective. There are lessons in everything, hopefully a lesson learned this time around… some wisdom now gathered!

Happy rest of the year!

Happy Solstice Gateway, Winter Solstice, Full Moon, Merry Christmas, and Happy New Year!
Whew! I am exhausted!


Love and Blessings!

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Thanksgiving and the Full Moon

‘Dear Diary’,
Happy Thanksgiving!

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I just want to take a moment and express my gratitude for:
Family and friends. Love. Health and wellbeing. The freedoms of creative expression (and being creative on many levels!).
The Divine; the guidance. Joy. Happiness. Laughter. Gaia and all her beauty. The abundance I have in my life.
For everything I AM and everything I have.
This list could go on because, in reality, I have a LOT to be thankful and grateful for. But I will keep this to my quick-little summary.


Also… it’s a Thanksgiving with a full moon!
The full moon, in Gemini, on the 22nd at 9:39pm for my ‘zone’. The energy around this moon (at zero degrees Gemini): creativity, communication and infinite possibilities! This just sounds like a wonderful energy to get this holiday season in motion!

Since this is the first of many more full moons at zero degrees, the energy – for me – is already feeling pretty awesome! It’s that momentum-thing we have all been building-up on. Right? We all have been working on ourselves, in a good-way. Keep that momentum going! Keep taking that next-right-action; that next-right step. Keep tapping into that intuition!

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So, about this string of full moons at ‘zero degrees’ coming our way. I’m kind-of impressed by this. From now until March… I mean, wow! Wow-wee-wow! I have my thoughts on this… you know, those things that make you go hmmmm. My take… I think we have entered some sort of astrological/lunar zero-point, helping assist us in the grander of zero-points … collective consciousness. Like a part or a piece to the whole. Consecutive zero degree full moons that finish out our Master 11 year and then flow us right into the 2019 year. Hmmm… it just seems like we have a nice blend of all these different Divine/Pure Source entanglements (if you will; entangle – in a good way!). Maybe that’s not the best word choice… montage…? A nice montage going-on in, on, and around us! What a dance that is happening right now. A Divinely orchestrated dance of things we can’t even imagine!

Yes, it’s all for our highest good and yes, it’s for us to get our shit-together! Dump the old, bring on the new!

Zero point = collective consciousness. Mind – Body; Heart – Source. I don’t know if we have ever had any other consecutive strings of full moons at zero degrees before. Sounds like something to maybe go do some research on. The question is: does it really matter if we have had something like this before or not? Because we are doing this now, this is now, and we are becoming (or transitioning into) our new planet, now.

5D is new to us – us lovely humans! And zero point is that connecting point; it’s the unmeasurable point in space-time that connects all that is with all that could be. It is infinite, it is loving and it’s intelligent. Kind of like us, right? (Giggle) 🙂

Here’s to a conscious holiday season!
I hope your 11-‘11’ month has been going good…

Love and blessings.

All Hallows’ Eve

Happy Halloween!

This was once one of my absolute favorite holidays; but, it has slipped in the rankings over the years.

When we lived in a populated town/city this holiday had a lot of action around it. So much going on: the decorating and parties; the get-togethers, haunted houses, costumes and trick-or-treating. Even the Halloween inspired cooking and baking was a must! I would start working on stuff the first week of October. With three kids, I usually made their costumes. More often than not, I would be working on them up to the last minute before they headed out to overload their buckets! I really did enjoy it; it was all a lot of fun!

I haven’t done anything Halloween-ish in the last few years.

It’s not like I said: no more! I am done with it all. No, it was gradual. Country living can wean you from a lot of the hubbub (and those occasional over-doing-it’s).
Hubbub – a word from my upbringing. Does anybody even use it anymore? I love the definition: noise, uproar and confusion. The synonyms are just as old-school as the original word: ruckus, clatter, and hullabaloo. No matter how you say it… it can sum up how the Halloween holiday can go, any holiday really, if you don’t keep it simple (streamline it and keep things in check). 🙂

So, simple is where we are these days with this Halloween holiday. It’s so simple that it’s practically non-existent. We are, officially, not even carving a pumpkin. Well, the carving I am doing is: cutting it up and baking it to eat! 🙂

The kids are grown up and have moved out. But even before that, the holiday activities had gradually dissipated over the years, since we moved out of any city limits. We still carved pumpkins and would just buy a bag of candy to indulge on. There wasn’t really any trick-or-treating going on in the sticks. You packed up everyone and drove to the closest town to do so. This (long, drawn-out, night) would eventually be ‘bought-out’ (or traded-in for) with a bag of candy (let’s just simplify all this craziness, shall we?).

Yes, the farther removed we got the cheaper the holiday got too! Halloween for around 25 bucks (for 3 kids)… ummm, okay! 🙂  They seemed pretty content with it. They still got to pick out and carve a pumpkin, they still got their candy (and actually picked what they wanted! What a dream! All chocolate and no suckers? Yay!). We even kept up with some of the fun baking. This worked out just fine as they all grew into their teen years. Teenagers and Halloween becomes ‘their-deal’ and not a huge concern, as the parent, to keep them fully entertained. They are off doing their own thing (while hopefully being smart and safe about whatever it was they chose to do).

Well, it’ll be a regular-ole evening for us. And I see this trending. I’m totally okay with it. Where we live, we don’t even see any signs that Halloween is going on around us. Just a quiet, mellow, country road. However, we might see a black cat, there’s definitely some big spiders around here with webs to match. Bats? Not sure. The full moon has already passed. And, let’s see, what other cliché things are Halloween? A witch and a ghost, a zombie and a werewolf, the Headless Horseman and Ichabod Crane. I guess those will have to be found in a movie or two. 🙂  Yes, it has definitely become a normal-ish day.

Have a safe and fun Halloween, whatever it is you find yourself doing. Even if it’s… nothing at all. 🙂

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