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Riding the Waves

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This morning as I sit in the quiet and journal… I can’t help but to notice that my ears are plugged, again. It’s more like: they are giving the sensation of plugging and un-plugging. Add this to the ever-present subtle ringing always going on in the back ground… It’s interesting.

The sensations/feelings of being underwater have been going on, for me, probably a few weeks now. I don’t remember exactly when this started happening but I know that when something/sensations start to repeat (become more constant) – I take notice. My ears need to be ‘popped’ but there probably isn’t a way to do that considering this isn’t your typical 3D rise and fall in elevation. It is, however, probably related to the rise in my vibration/5D with no ordinary ‘falling’ back down into, what used to be, the bottom/sea-level. Anyone who has experienced the popping-of-ones-ears due to going up and down hills/mountains/elevation knows what this feels like. Somewhere, and at some time, back at ground-level your ears will pop or eventually clear out. I am waiting for the ‘clearing out’. 🙂

I do like that it isn’t affecting me in any other way that the 3D/density-way would. I can hear fine, I can hear clearly. I am not having any equilibrium issues, or problems with balance. No headaches, head pressures, or overall chronic yawning (that can come with ear-popping). None of those things that can actually throw someone off a bit in their functioning. It’s not bad at all; just noticeable and sometimes a little weird/different and very new.

Weird happens when the additional sensation of a wave comes over me. Energetic waves will pulse through my body – from head to toe. Subtle inner-core vibrations that have their moments of intensity – but nothing that would knock me on my butt. The only way I can describe this is being under water or at the edge of the ocean/the beach when that water is coming up to shore and washes over you… a wave. I don’t mind this at all. I have even begun to smile when it happens.

I know that this is a new ascension ‘symptom’ for me and is serving a purpose as my DNA is adjusting, upgrading and coming on-line; as my physical body integrates, as I continue to receive and absorb all this new energy. My new body.

Symptom… I don’t know if that is a truly accurate word for what happens to me anymore. Symptom sounds like something you are ‘coming down with’ or negatively affected by; or chronic. I want to find a new word to describe all the great 5D upgraded changes/re-adjustments/recalibrations going on. There probably already is one; and ‘upgrade’ is probably it. Maybe I will leave the word symptom for any of those more physically ‘ailing’ things – the things that come up for me to heal. Deep wounding and scars that have ‘symptoms’ because I have been carrying it around for so long. Almost chronic… but not quite.

Even the definition of the word symptom has a negative connotation to it. Here’s the Merriam-Webster definition: subjective evidence of disease or physical disturbance: something that indicates the presence of bodily disorder.
That just doesn’t sound like what my integration of upgrades and activations is all about. Since words carry a vibration – I would like to find a word that is a little more pleasing. Clicking around the dictionary website I was trying to find something that is similar but not such a ‘debbie-downer’, if ya know what I mean…

The simple word of ‘sign’, or even ‘signal’, was a word I came across. It has a nice ring to it. There are some similarities but the definition has a more upbeat vibe, I feel.

Sign: a motion or gesture by which a thought is expressed or a command or wish made known. Also has the definition of: something material or external that stands for or signifies something spiritual; something indicating the presence or existence of something else.

Signal: to notify by a signal; to communicate or indicate by or as if by signals; distinguished from the ordinary.

These both would work. For the sign definition where it states ‘something material or external’ – that would need to be flipped and tweaked just a bit. Maybe to something internal and a sensation. Is a sensation a ‘material’ thing? Well, it ‘materializes’ for me! Internally! 🙂

Ahhh… trying to find the right words to describe the Divine has always been a struggle for us humans. We do our best with what we can/understand. We do our best for what we can cognize, personally. It’s a toughie but we are a persistent-folk! What feels like a ‘wave’ to me might feel like a different kind of vibration to someone else. I think that regardless of what words we individually find to describe our signs/signals, or even symptoms, the knowing is there. The knowing and awareness that we recognize for ourselves and in each other – the Divine, the upgrades, the ascension, the higher-vibes! At the very core of it all… words aren’t even necessary. Just feeling the love is all that is needed. 🙂

Keep integrating everyone! Integrate with absolute love! Feel the waves, swim in the deep, keep coming on-line and being plugged-in to the Divine! ❤

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3-20 & 21

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YES! Happy spring! It’s also the final of the five consecutive zero degrees full moons. Our zero-point!

All I can say is: wow! Wow! What an elevating/invigorating last few months around here. When I say here – I mean… Planet Earth! 🙂

The last time we had a full moon spring equinox was apparently back in March 1981. So… it’s been awhile. I guess it almost happened in 2000… but not quite. In ’81 I was 11… and when I crunch the numbers that would have been a ‘one’ year. It was a numerological year of new beginnings – and I would have not been paying attention to that. I didn’t really start getting into numerology until my 20’s.

At eleven I was living that carefree life of the youth. I was probably riding my bike along the ditch-bank roads, catching butterflies (yes, I had a net and everything!), reading books, and crafting something. Cross stitch and beading bracelets was where I was at as an eleven year old. Being consciously aware of trying to manifest my own abundance was not at the forefront. I was just: doing!

I was doing things that I loved! Doing those inspired actions. If I wanted to go bake a batch of cookies to share with family, I did. If I wanted to paint something, I did. If I wanted to make some jewelry, I did. You get the picture. If the uninhibited compulsion to do some fun activity struck me… I did it. No excuses. I went and did it. If the ‘stuff’ wasn’t there for me to do my main-goal, I went to plan ‘B’. I would manifest those impulsive ‘visions’ in my head/heart in some form or another. That freedom of being the child without (any apparent) blocks and ‘baggage’ was a liberating time (for me). I see it now. I see that there was ‘no resistance’ as a kid.

I didn’t have the built up blocks back then. Yes, they were definitely developing. Hahaha 🙂 I can laugh at it now because I have worked through some of them. But in those childhood moments – I didn’t care. That ‘being in the flow’ was what it’s all about. I am working on bringing this back into my life. I would love reclaiming that point of ‘no resistance’ again. I am working on it, definitely. Because I have a few different areas that I am addressing with myself… with each step of forgiveness, releasing, clearing and loving… I am moving into less resistance. This helps in the letting go and being in flow. I can look back over the last year and see noticeable improvements within my deep, childhood healing.

So… as I work on my childhood, it opens me up to my unlimited potential in my adulthood. That free-flowing, loving what I’m doing, having fun, inspired actions! And spring time has always been a great booster for energizing creativity! For me anyway.

This time around, with this amazing super full moon spring equinox, I am paying attention to the energies. I am also utilizing it probably way better than I did when I was 11. 🙂

Like any other spring equinox… it’s a fresh start, inspiration, newness and adventure! There is that warmth of the sun perking you right up and, yes, putting that spring in your step! On the surface this one might not be that much different. Except (it is!) it has new-energies ‘booster-blaster’ in it to help propel us further in our expansion, ascension, stepping into our truth… to BE our true selves! There’s an energy with this one that can be felt.

I’m totally okay with that! Even my eleven year old self even thinks that’s pretty cool! Keep integrating and adjusting to all these wonderful love-n-light Universal/Cosmic energies that are flooding us! Live from your heart, have fun, and manifest your abundance!
Happy spring and happy 3-3-‘3’ gateway!

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3-3-‘3’

On By KerriIn ascension, general, Health & Wellness1 Comment

Happy mind, body, and spirit gateway-day! As a 3-3-3 portal it seems to have a few ways of being looked at; and I am noticing various ‘this and that’s’. Perspective, right? I am finding that however it is being conceptualized/translated it boils-down to the core energies/knowings of: Christ-consciousness, Ascended Masters/Spirit, and you/your soul/awakening, aligning, ascending and transforming.

I, personally (probably like many others), have a LOT going on right now. And I am noticing: hard-core!

Along with the myriad of gateways, portals, and cosmic events/happenings… this 3 year is pressing down on my gas-pedal. It is offering me another layer of energetic-action(s) because 3 is my life path number. A three life-path in a three-year… powerful stuff! Today is really feeling like a T-H-R-E-E punch! In a good way.

As if this wasn’t already enough for me to integrate, assimilate, and work-with I also am fully engaged into my Chiron return… in Aries! Do I have moments where I feel like I could implode? Uh… yes! Hahaha! 🙂

Seriously though, Chiron in Aries has me working-on and healing, releasing, clearing my wounding’s while this new energetic year of ‘3’ has me propelling forward.

Have I been busy at my core-level? Yes!

Does it have me feeling like I am all-over the place? Yes!

Am I needing naps (longer meditations or to sleep in) because the energies I continually integrate knock me on my ass? Yes!

Do I find myself in a pool of tears because I find, face, and forgive a deep wound/scar; while simultaneously feel love, joy and happiness that I am now free from it? Hell-Yes!

So… as this 3-3-3 day brings in another layer/level of intense vibrational upgrades – I have actually been feeling pretty energetic! BUT I know that at some point… I am going to get hit with a wave that will probably have me feeling K-O’d! (knocked out) 

I like having a portal-day pumping me up with energy and actually feeling: energetic! I will admit… they can be hit and miss. Some portals/gateways – have me completely vegging-out and feeling drained, exhausted. But I also have some that have me feeling amped, energetic, and inspired while getting lit-up from the beautiful love-Universe and Pure Source! I open to allow and receive.

However you comprehend what this triple 3 day means for you: (examples of) the Trinity… mind, body, spirit; beginning, middle, ending; the Father, the Son, and Holy Spirit… it is Divine. This is a day of Divine/Pure Source energies, frequencies, codes, upgrades, love, expansion, transformation, awakening, awareness, intuition, and that general deep, deep inner-soul-stuff! 🙂

Enjoy it! Feel it! Integrate it! Keep rockin’ your new-self on this new-earth!
Love and blessings ❤

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Grounding!

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I had a moment of not being in my body today and I noticed how weird it was. I noticed how weird it was that I also noticed (how weird it was)!

I thought I was doing my normal grocery shopping task… and being: normal (or 3D, if you will). 🙂

To begin with, I will mention that doing the actual shopping – it seemed like I was kind-of mentally there but not really. All well and good, I guess. But when it came time to check out and pay for all my groceries… I suddenly felt really weird, I felt floaty, I felt wavy… I felt like I was observing myself stumbling along with trying to pay. I even recognized that ‘I feel like I am watching myself starring at this wallet’. Hmmm… weird. I feel a little… weird.

I watched myself look through a wallet that seemed suddenly foreign to me. What am I paying with? What are all these cards? Is this even my wallet? Yes… yes it is.

I found my card. I then had a brief moment with the terminal… WTF? What is with all the brain farts? After paying I head out to the car. I had another floaty-moment and stared at my car while I was trying to comprehend the unlocking of it. I suddenly found myself mentally walking through the steps, visualizing in my mind, of getting into my car! I then realized… shit… I am so-not-grounded! I need to ground, and do it now!

I might have even blurted this out loud in the parking lot… I can’t remember. I just knew I was going to ground into Gaia right then and there! I gave myself a brief moment of standing between my open car door and the cart… feeling Gaia under my feet and sending my grounding cord down. Seconds later I was telling myself to grab each bag, one at a time. Feel the weight, notice them, and arrange them in the car… I was focusing-in on the moment… the ‘now’.

This was good. I was feeling ‘better’ by the time I was all done and back in the driver seat! By ‘better’ I am meaning – like I was ‘all there’ again and felt like I was back on earth! The drive home even felt different. Which tells me I left the house totally floaty and ungrounded. Accidents happen when you aren’t grounded.

This was definitely a reminder that I need to ground more frequently than I used to; and probably should be making it a daily conscious effort! The Gaia energies and 5D transformation(s) have had me all over the place lately. Things are speeding up and if my 5D DNA is taking me there/with her… I need to make it a point to practice grounding-in way more than I did… even just a few months ago!

I know I am living in a duality-space right now. This place and space between worlds is becoming something I can sense (and pick up on) a little faster with each time I find myself in the ‘between’. I am just guessing that those of us in ascension-mode probably have some of the same things happening but also very different!

I might even be in that bubble where it used to be: ground so you can meditate and ‘take yourself there’ while making sure you are connecting to Gaia. But lately I feel there is a flipping going on where it’s: ground because you are already ‘there’, regardless of meditation(s), and you still need to keep your connection to Gaia! I don’t know if that makes sense. It’s probably going to get harder and harder to describe what is going on/happening – as I keep upgrading and going 5D. Stuff can get indescribable.

There is probably no words in our planetary-human-vocabulary that can even come close to the Divine energies one can feel, sense, experience, cognize, integrate and assimilate.

So… on that note… I guess this is a heads up that my future journaling’s will probably consist of made-up words and concepts in order to try to describe the sensations, energies, physical shifting, and awareness-es. 🙂

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Procrastination

On By KerriIn creativity, general, Health & Wellness2 Comments

On this energetic day of 2’s…

I just wanted to post a quote that became an instant favorite of mine.

It’s from Abraham Hicks, and it just resonated with me… it brought a smile to my face; as those who know me – know I can be a chronic-procrastinator. Well, maybe ‘chronic’ is too harsh of a word because it’s not all the time. I have moments or blocks-of-time where I seem to be more procrastinating than others. I’ve even openly admitted this in my writings here.

Procrastination, in my life (and probably for most), has a 3D label surrounding it: ‘lazy’. I always found that to be an irritating way to try to describe something that one just doesn’t have the deepest desire to do (right away). It’s not like I don’t want to do it… it’s just that I don’t have the energies to deal with it at that time (whatever that may be). I have always had an interesting relationship with ‘procrastination’ and I know this is part of my healing journey here.

My inner-knowing has always been letting me know that… it just isn’t really that important at this time. While those around me – the ones who think time is actually real (thinking linear) – feel I should be getting all things done, and getting them done yesterday! 🙂 I don’t let their issues with procrastination bother me. Because, really, it’s also about perception of what procrastination is (individually).

So, yes, I know this is ‘self-inflicted’ and I’m working through this area/issue – while I work-on and clean-up my childhood wounds. And… as I do-this… the quick little quote from Abraham Hicks explains it well:

What is the definition of procrastination?
It means: I can feel within my energy sensor that this action is not in perfect alignment at this time!

**Nailed-it! 🙂

❤

All things Abraham Hicks can be checked out here:

Enjoy! https://www.abraham-hicks.com/

2-19 This Full Moon Is SUPER

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Full Snow Super-Moon! Big bright beautiful moon!

Absolutely gorgeous – it has been, yes. The nights leading up to the super-moon – radiant; powerful, awe-inspiring, yes! (Insert your best Yoda impersonation here)

I can’t sleep because it has been so bright. But then I realize… I kind-of don’t want to! My mind-body-spirit connection has been on high-alert; basically since the new year started. When I say high-alert – I am meaning: in-tune like never before. The things going on now are a whole-nuther level UP from, even, last year!

This new earth energy has me firing up some cylinders that I didn’t even know I had. Ya, there are a couple of rusty-cylinders that I have been consistently scrubbing, cleaning, and buffing with the inner-knowing of bringing them back to full-‘life’-potential but this journaling isn’t about that… at least I don’t think it is. Maybe it is! Ahhh, these are also confusing times. What exactly is it that I am doing? Or supposed to be doing? I can get a little A.D.D. and feel like I am all over the place – all while trying to get with the grips of this new reality, the new earth, the 5D and ascension that is upon us.

These continual non-stop ascension activities are messing with some stuff. I’m not sure if ‘messing’ is the right term though. I (like most all of us) was living in a cloud for so long, a haze of programmed ways of thinking, believing, processing, and just assuming that ‘this is real’; when technically – it was not.

THIS… this ‘now’ is not really ‘messing’ with stuff – if it was never real to begin with. It just appears that way. That is the ego-mind/monkey-mind trying to organize and process what it doesn’t even understand or comprehend.

The 3D is dissolving, I guess this is what is getting ‘messed with’. It’s letting go of the old, and learning or re-learning/remembering, how to adjust with all the newly integrated 5D+. It can feel a little crazy-tired-and-wired all at the same time. For example… right now – I am super tired! I am physically exhausted but my higher consciousness is wanting to gobble-up so much new information right now! It is wanting me to keep gradually pressing down on that gas pedal. I then find myself bypassing sleep mode for reading, reading, reading, listening, listening, listening, writing, writing, writing; and repeat! Physically pooped… mentally awake and spiritually-‘hyper-active’! This happens quite frequently for me! It reminds me of the scene in the movie ‘The Matrix’ when Neo gets hooked up to learn – and learns Kung Fu, for example. He wants to know: more!

There’s a constant download of all-things-new; new discoveries, new information, new perspectives. It’s not actually new 🙂 but it is to me! This has been my ride since my awakening. I have moments when things slow down; I take some time for self-care: I integrate, I assimilate, adjust and work on my alignment. I have chunks of time where all I want to do is meditate and sleep. Just enough, apparently, before I go through another round of feeling the high energies, absorbing, learning, opening up to Pure Source wisdom, receiving downloads, frequencies, light, and healing energies. Mentally jazzed and excited and going probably a little too fast for the physical body to keep up. It’s a cycle I see myself easily getting caught up in, but I recognize it and remind myself – it’s time to take a nap! Slow down – you can get right back into it after some rest. Right now, though, I am binging on all this fun new stuff!! Things are, literally, changing daily! This really ‘lights the fires and kicks the tires’…

This super-full-moon is just more energies in the mix that is: my life (maybe yours too)! All these full moon’s we have been having at ‘zero degrees’ is culminating it all into this amazing zero set point right now. It is a full-on energetic-high-vibrational time. I have been feeling it continually amping-up. And from what I am understanding – there’s no slowing down any time soon. Along with Gaia, we all have a lot of clearing/shifting to do in order to reach our highest potential(s).

Full moons are great for clearing, releasing, and healing! You gotta clean out the ‘old’ so all your ‘new’ has a place to go/be/do! Good bye 3D! Hello 5D, you can come on in… 3D was just leaving! 🙂

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I heart DNA Upgrades!

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The DNA upgrades are continuing on. Yes, of course they are!

The last couple of weeks I have been having some re-wiring going on and I have been noticing them, acknowledging them, observing them all while giving them the love, care, and space-for-assimilation needed.

As I have been clearing out my ‘old’ – I make way to let my ‘new’ keep coming in. New light-body… I can feel the rebuilding happening. It’s subtle for the most part. There are moments of intensity – but they seem fairly quick and not as intensely-intrusive as they used to be. My early days required a shake-up, I guess. When it’s new and misunderstood – it can be a bit jarring at times. Not to say that I am done having those… I have NO idea! I am just noticing that they seem to be a little less disruptive. Discovering (and then applying) that I can be and should be working with these activations was a game-changer for me. I have opted for the light-body DNA upgrading to be done with ease and grace. Ask for it. Command it. This is something we all can do. It doesn’t have to be a jarring, scary, freak-out type of transmissional-activity. It took me a couple of these ‘sudden bursts’ of weirdness to realize… it’s okay, I’m okay! And that I can be ‘with’ it, in love and gratitude, while things are happening.

I would cross-reference my upgrade-activation-activities with something I would later read (or hear) about. Guided to by my higher-self because it’s what I needed. It is validating and has a tendency to ease the monkey-mind. After a couple of these teachable moments (ah, yes, always learning!) I have become confident that the goings-on’s with my physical body, that just aren’t considered ‘normal’, are light-body re-wirings/upgrades. It helps when you have a pretty-good knowing or relationship with/about your body, or body-awareness, in general. I feel that having the connection, which I do have with my physical body, has helped me recognize, know, and understand (or cognize) a little quicker – than someone who probably has no connection with their bodies.

I have recently had the experience of my eyes and vision being ‘worked-on’; the re-wiring and upgrading. It happens… well, whenever it wants to! Once you open up to receive and allow your DNA to be upgraded – your physical body will follow suit (haha… pun intended… because our bodies are our human-suits!… anyway…) 🙂 My eyes decided to give me a blurry/wavy peripheral vision. Clear and sharp straight ahead, wavy and pulsing in my peripheral. It was interesting to just witness this. Tunnel vision? In a really weird way!

About a minute in (when I realized this ‘thing’ was not stopping) I asked: what is happening? And then my vision began to vibrate. It had… a pulsing sensation that I have never experienced before. This vision-work lasted a couple of minutes at various levels of what I can only describe as: bizarre. At one point it was like I was looking under water. I decided to close my eyes and just be in the moment. Feeling it while also visualizing being wrapped in Divine light and love. It was calming. I was calm. Within just a couple of minutes the adjustment was done.

You can resist or you can be at peace. I am knowing that being at peace is w-a-y smoother and easier than resisting! Some upgrade-adjustments could be doozies or they might be gentle. Everyone is different and we all have various ‘things’ we need to unload and clear in order for the new light and frequencies to come-on-in and make themselves at home. You also need to actually want that! Just because there is constant activity (right now) of becoming 5D/crystalline you do have the option, the choice, to accept or deny the change and wanting to be here, to experience it, to evolve.

For those of us that choose to stay, want to stay, and want to experience expansion; give permission to upgrade – and you will! Consciously or sub-consciously it works either way. I do feel that those that are choosing sub-consciously will have a lot more slaps-in-the-face and gut-punches than those who are choosing at the conscious level. If you don’t understand that your higher self/soul has chosen to integrate into the new earth paradigm – you might have some bigger struggles. You consciously don’t know or understand that you need to shake off and clear out a lot of old gunk. Things aren’t working the way they once did, people might be irritating you on a different level, and relationships are morphing into something that you can’t quite put your finger on. The change, whatever it may be, is signaling you, or them. There’s so many dynamics to awakening and the ascension process(es) that there is no one right answer or one-size-fits-all right now. But whatever it is that’s coming up, or keeps coming up, for you – it’s giving you a chance right now to open up those sleepy-eyes and look around! Wakey, wakey… eggs and bakey! There will be no more ‘hitting the snooze button’… it is time to wake up, get up, and get going! 5D has already begun!

I know there was a lot of clearing, for me, in 2018. There will probably be more clearing this year too. I don’t know how long it will take me to get all these ‘onion-layers’ peeled. I do know that each time I do clear what no longer serves me, clear cords and attachments, clear the lower vibrational stuff, clear-clear-clear… it’s allowing more light! More Divine light and higher vibrational consciousness! More-more-more! It feels good – and it should!

Love and blessings everyone!
Enjoy the energies of light and love… keep peeling your layers!

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