The 8-8 of 2019

I will be spending the wonderful Lions Gate portal day, and the weekend that follows – out camping and truly being in nature. Super-excited to be playing, enjoying, un-plugging, grounding-in, sleeping on… Gaia for this particular weekend. Icing on the cake: I’m with my hubby and our amazing kiddos! ❤

I’ll be staring up at the night skies and enjoying all the beautiful stars/starlight! I will be allowing and directing-in all them energies, frequencies, codes and activations for the next level fun!

I hope everyone has the opportunity to spend their gate-way time out in nature too; in some form or another. Happy Sirian/Sirius day, happy Lions Gateway.

Love and blessings!

*Update*

Not much star gazing while camping – we had a rainy weekend. BUT the thunder and lightening storm (that came through Friday night) was really cool (even though it soaked us!). Sleeping/laying on the ground while lightening struck near by was… actually kind-of cool. I could feel these (shock) waves run through my body. The energy was, what I can only describe as, cleansing. I felt like I was having ‘stuff’ zapped right out and off of me. That – hard to describe – crack and snap that you can feel in your body when the ground is vibrating… I was feeling that.

I don’t recommend being out in any lightening storm. But we were there, camping in it. If it got too close for comfort – we were heading for our truck. But we stayed safe. I doubled-up ‘security’ by asking AA Michael to watch over us.

I felt and utilized this shock-therapy 🙂 to remove anything that no longer serves, anything that isn’t mine, what’s not for my greatest and highest good… I worked with it. The next morning – I felt lighter! I felt pretty good. That’s saying a lot when the sleeping wasn’t very good to begin with!

Yup, I went into this camp trip with some ideas of what I thought I wanted to do (or what was going to happen)! The Universe had a different plan… I went with it and had an adaptation of intention(s). Unique, and will probably never be duplicated again! It was rare, it was interesting, it was cleansing, and it was an experience! ❤ 🙂

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Observation-mode

So, I’ve had a hankerin’ for some classic movies lately. Does classic mean the 60’s anymore? Or does it mean anything older than 10 years? I’m voting for the 10 year mark. Heck, there’s stuff from 5 years ago – already considered ‘classic’. I guess, as time is speeding up – the gap that creates classics would get smaller too. Instant classic also comes to mind. Regardless of how I am trying to categorize it – the movie I watched was definitely an oldie-but-goodie. What’s interesting about it this time – is that I am really seeing the parallels in it with ‘real life’. I don’t think I really looked at it in this way before. It was always just… entertainment.

It’s ‘The Truman Show’ (starring Jim Carrey) it came out back in 1998. I have seen it a few times over the years. But the difference between the 7 or 8 years ago (when I’m thinking I last saw it) to watching it last week… huge! It is still entertainment… but oh how oddly realistic it kind-of is.

If you haven’t seen this cute film, maybe give it a chance.

As I was watching this with new perspective I kept noticing how ‘that’s so us’! Us, the human race. We are all in the dome of make believe. Lots of similarities – from living a programmed 3D life to our little awakening moments that lead us to a better ‘enlightenment’. Being ‘watched’, guided, and having things orchestrated via the Universe to create synchronicities. Sure, this all varies from person to person but the gist of it is still the same. We are asleep – until we wake up! I just thought it was kind-of funny how I didn’t notice that correlation before. But then, I was in waking-mode when I saw it last. Sometimes you need to be past something before being fully aware of it. When you are in it – you might not know you are in it.

Kind of like… now. The wave of awakening that is happening now has many people not even knowing they are awakening. They just know something is changing, different, or they are beginning to click with new thoughts/how they think. This works in conjunction with how they feel, getting in touch with emotions, or just general deeper pondering that they have probably been avoiding (for years or maybe all their life). There are a lot of ‘Truman’s’ awakening. And yes this is good n’ great, but some can wake up swinging arms and punching air! There can be confusion, panic, freak-outs, and just general misunderstanding.

As an energy/lightworker I feel that it really is part of our job to be the calming voice, maybe ‘voice of reason’, from the perspective of already being on the other side of this (the things we all go through, been through, experienced and learned from in our own processes). We are here to help as this wave comes rushing in and through. The person(s) receiving the help might not realize it in that moment but it will click somewhere down the line for them. It’s not our job to pull and yank anyone by the hand and force them to process quickly. We just need to be the light, patience, love, and understanding.

We are all on our own journey’s here. We have things we want to do/be individually… but also as a collective group (as we build into our unity-consciousness). Being patient with someone while they work-through their own crap is beneficial to the parties involved as well as the group (all of us) as a whole.

Remember to be understanding with the Truman’s in your life. They might be feeling confusion, a ‘stuck-ness’, lonely, bored, sad, agitated, lost, struggling, bouts of anger, maybe even some depression. Things are coming up for them, being shown to them, repeating for them. We are all having this – at some level. Mine… have gotten a little easier and, I will say, more obvious! It might be the next day when it becomes obvious… but to me – that’s fast! There is something to be said for ‘sleeping on it’. I love working on things in my dream-time. It has taken a few years – but I can recognize a block/obstacle way faster than I did even just a year ago. It comes with awareness, intuition, observation, tuning-in, allowing Source to assist, being conscious, loving yourself, having a more positive mind-set, and knowing that this 3D matrix is for learning.

In school, did we all fester on an algebra problem we just couldn’t grasp? Did we embed it into our physical body or sub-conscious somewhere and wait for it to bubble up later in life? No. We learned how to approach it, adjusted the ‘math’ for our capabilities, solved the equation and moved on. It was something we took care of right away so we could be done with it. We aren’t packing around this algebra problem with us for the rest of our lives, so it can pop-up at the worst possible moment, making us work through it again. OR… maybe you are. Some people love math and do pack around equations. I, however, do not. The moral of this math analogy is… We can do this ‘problem solving’ with earthly issues that tend to fester for us. Things that we DID pack away (usually from our childhood) – we can bring them up, acknowledge what it was here to teach, approach it in an observational-mode, and then ‘get the lesson’. Thank it, love it, forgive it – if need be – and let it go. Solve your math problem… Be done with it!

Yes, it’s that: wanting to bring it up part.

A lot of people don’t want to bring it up. Sorry… but you will have to. You cannot grow and evolve without taking a look. A good, close, look. These are your lessons. If you aren’t done with them – they keep coming at you. Over and over and over…. Man, I am exhausted just thinking about it! How do people live like this? How was I living like this? Oh, that’s right… I was snoooooozing! Being sleepy or, for some, completely asleep keeps everything buried. If it comes up… give it a quick WTF?, then ignore it, and re-bury it! Hurry… before anyone notices! Bury it deeper this time!

This process will no longer work.

Maybe these are zombie-issues. They just keep creeping up from their depths, attack you for a while until you kill it and then re-bury it! Oh my… sometimes I wonder how I can go from a Truman-like movie thought process to a Zombie-like movie… hmmm. It’s all related, right?

And on that note…

It’s Lion gateway time! The 8-8 is right around the corner. What an awesome time to bring up some trauma you have had packed away. Yes, bring it up and take a look. Ask it questions, wait for answers. Communicate with it. It wants to show you, teach you, and help you in your growth. You don’t have to solve it in one day. If it was a doozie, approach it in baby steps. The fact that you are ready to learn is already: step one.

Be patient with yourself, but also be diligent. You have to keep working at it/on it until you have truly cleared it. If it comes back around, when you thought you were done, then – you aren’t done. Keep taking a look. The more of an observer you can be – the better. It can be difficult to see things when you are too emotionally there. With time, practice, and the true love you have for yourself – to work on yourself, you will start seeing things more clearly. With true clarity comes the cleansing.

Sounds funny-weird… but I would think that when the true wave of awakening is in full swing… there is going to be so much crying and cleansing going on – there will be no time for drama! Think about it.

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7-16 Lunar Fun!

Yup, our last lunar eclipse for the year. It’s partial, and it’s tonight.
My thoughts on this one…

Well, since this is the other slice of bread to the sandwich that was ‘eclipse season’…

I. am. tired! I have felt pretty drained since the solar eclipse that was on the 2nd. It also seems to be more of a mental-drain than an all-out physical one. I do my best to take-care and pay attention to what my body is saying to me. Some days are better than others.

I would tend to think that a LOT of us are feeling this planetary-cosmic-Universal potpourri of goings-on’s right now! I mean – geesh… eclipses and retrogrades and ramping up towards the Lion’s Gate portal (er… Sirius Day!) 🙂 I am definitely going to take a soak in some Epsom salts.

Cleaning, clearing and releasing will be going on for a while but as long as it IS going on – things will continually/consistently improve. There is no going backwards. I have probably said this before but it is true. Some work is better than no work. Sure, there might be (what feels like) some stagnant times but it is still the process of moving forward. That’s the beauty of trusting and Divine timing… sometimes slow and steady wins the race; whatever ‘race’ you are in for that particular moment/issue/situation.

I love being out on Gaia right now. What I mean by that is – being in the yard, my garden, outside in general. Soaking up the sun and sending it love for the beautiful rays-of-light that powers me up! I feel like I could go to sleep under the sun for days and just… absorb and integrate! Sounds crazy probably – but I have thought about it! 🙂  The thought of sizzling out there does make me NOT want to do that though. So, instead of the sleeping – I do the yard work. I just want to be out – in it!

I am also finding myself doing some cleaning up around here. Just wanting things to be ‘fresh and clean’. I have been neglecting the house this last month and it was starting to show. You know… because I just want to be outside.

So… eclipse, retrogrades, swirling, twirling everything… Cleaning, cleaning, cleaning!

Yup, I would say – the energies are pretty high right now and those that don’t understand are probably the most confused by it all. I remind myself to be patient and be in observation-mode while they go through… whatever it is they need to go through. It’s not up to me to get them to the answer, they need to find their own answer. But I can only hope that I might be able to offer a word or two of a different perspective. When I hear a response of: ‘I never thought of it that way’- then I know that they will now continue on, with their processing, with a new puzzle piece. There’s no judgement, no could-a/should-a’s, no you’re doing it all wrongs… just a different perspective coming from an observation. I think most are needing this kind of love right now. The non-judgmental kind.

It’s hard not to ‘judge’ because we have all been programmed to do so; with each other and mostly ourselves. Man, we’re so hard on ourselves! If we are constantly judging and comparing and self-loathing – then how can we be anything above that for others? I mean, really? It becomes fake. It is fake. We really need to be checking-in with ourselves first. Self-love is the new black. When you really dig deep and start caring for yourself as the one-true-love… it will open your world! It is absolute freedom!

And… because I truly love and respect myself – I will be soaking in an Epsoms salts bath on this amazing full moon partial lunar eclipse evening! I will be aiding my physical body in the removal of… whatever needs to be removed! Clean, clean, clean… right? 🙂

Here’s to moving forward! To going onward and upward! Love yourself so that you can be love, come from love, and share the love!

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Riding the Waves

This morning as I sit in the quiet and journal… I can’t help but to notice that my ears are plugged, again. It’s more like: they are giving the sensation of plugging and un-plugging. Add this to the ever-present subtle ringing always going on in the back ground… It’s interesting.

The sensations/feelings of being underwater have been going on, for me, probably a few weeks now. I don’t remember exactly when this started happening but I know that when something/sensations start to repeat (become more constant) – I take notice. My ears need to be ‘popped’ but there probably isn’t a way to do that considering this isn’t your typical 3D rise and fall in elevation. It is, however, probably related to the rise in my vibration/5D with no ordinary ‘falling’ back down into, what used to be, the bottom/sea-level. Anyone who has experienced the popping-of-ones-ears due to going up and down hills/mountains/elevation knows what this feels like. Somewhere, and at some time, back at ground-level your ears will pop or eventually clear out. I am waiting for the ‘clearing out’. 🙂

I do like that it isn’t affecting me in any other way that the 3D/density-way would. I can hear fine, I can hear clearly. I am not having any equilibrium issues, or problems with balance. No headaches, head pressures, or overall chronic yawning (that can come with ear-popping). None of those things that can actually throw someone off a bit in their functioning. It’s not bad at all; just noticeable and sometimes a little weird/different and very new.

Weird happens when the additional sensation of a wave comes over me. Energetic waves will pulse through my body – from head to toe. Subtle inner-core vibrations that have their moments of intensity – but nothing that would knock me on my butt. The only way I can describe this is being under water or at the edge of the ocean/the beach when that water is coming up to shore and washes over you… a wave. I don’t mind this at all. I have even begun to smile when it happens.

I know that this is a new ascension ‘symptom’ for me and is serving a purpose as my DNA is adjusting, upgrading and coming on-line; as my physical body integrates, as I continue to receive and absorb all this new energy. My new body.

Symptom… I don’t know if that is a truly accurate word for what happens to me anymore. Symptom sounds like something you are ‘coming down with’ or negatively affected by; or chronic. I want to find a new word to describe all the great 5D upgraded changes/re-adjustments/recalibrations going on. There probably already is one; and ‘upgrade’ is probably it. Maybe I will leave the word symptom for any of those more physically ‘ailing’ things – the things that come up for me to heal. Deep wounding and scars that have ‘symptoms’ because I have been carrying it around for so long. Almost chronic… but not quite.

Even the definition of the word symptom has a negative connotation to it. Here’s the Merriam-Webster definition: subjective evidence of disease or physical disturbance: something that indicates the presence of bodily disorder.
That just doesn’t sound like what my integration of upgrades and activations is all about. Since words carry a vibration – I would like to find a word that is a little more pleasing. Clicking around the dictionary website I was trying to find something that is similar but not such a ‘debbie-downer’, if ya know what I mean…

The simple word of ‘sign’, or even ‘signal’, was a word I came across. It has a nice ring to it. There are some similarities but the definition has a more upbeat vibe, I feel.

Sign: a motion or gesture by which a thought is expressed or a command or wish made known. Also has the definition of: something material or external that stands for or signifies something spiritual; something indicating the presence or existence of something else.

Signal: to notify by a signal; to communicate or indicate by or as if by signals; distinguished from the ordinary.

These both would work. For the sign definition where it states ‘something material or external’ – that would need to be flipped and tweaked just a bit. Maybe to something internal and a sensation. Is a sensation a ‘material’ thing? Well, it ‘materializes’ for me! Internally! 🙂

Ahhh… trying to find the right words to describe the Divine has always been a struggle for us humans. We do our best with what we can/understand. We do our best for what we can cognize, personally. It’s a toughie but we are a persistent-folk! What feels like a ‘wave’ to me might feel like a different kind of vibration to someone else. I think that regardless of what words we individually find to describe our signs/signals, or even symptoms, the knowing is there. The knowing and awareness that we recognize for ourselves and in each other – the Divine, the upgrades, the ascension, the higher-vibes! At the very core of it all… words aren’t even necessary. Just feeling the love is all that is needed. 🙂

Keep integrating everyone! Integrate with absolute love! Feel the waves, swim in the deep, keep coming on-line and being plugged-in to the Divine! ❤

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3-3-‘3’

Happy mind, body, and spirit gateway-day! As a 3-3-3 portal it seems to have a few ways of being looked at; and I am noticing various ‘this and that’s’. Perspective, right? I am finding that however it is being conceptualized/translated it boils-down to the core energies/knowings of: Christ-consciousness, Ascended Masters/Spirit, and you/your soul/awakening, aligning, ascending and transforming.

I, personally (probably like many others), have a LOT going on right now. And I am noticing: hard-core!

Along with the myriad of gateways, portals, and cosmic events/happenings… this 3 year is pressing down on my gas-pedal. It is offering me another layer of energetic-action(s) because 3 is my life path number. A three life-path in a three-year… powerful stuff! Today is really feeling like a T-H-R-E-E punch! In a good way.

As if this wasn’t already enough for me to integrate, assimilate, and work-with I also am fully engaged into my Chiron return… in Aries! Do I have moments where I feel like I could implode? Uh… yes! Hahaha! 🙂

Seriously though, Chiron in Aries has me working-on and healing, releasing, clearing my wounding’s while this new energetic year of ‘3’ has me propelling forward.

Have I been busy at my core-level? Yes!

Does it have me feeling like I am all-over the place? Yes!

Am I needing naps (longer meditations or to sleep in) because the energies I continually integrate knock me on my ass? Yes!

Do I find myself in a pool of tears because I find, face, and forgive a deep wound/scar; while simultaneously feel love, joy and happiness that I am now free from it? Hell-Yes!

So… as this 3-3-3 day brings in another layer/level of intense vibrational upgrades – I have actually been feeling pretty energetic! BUT I know that at some point… I am going to get hit with a wave that will probably have me feeling K-O’d! (knocked out) 

I like having a portal-day pumping me up with energy and actually feeling: energetic! I will admit… they can be hit and miss. Some portals/gateways – have me completely vegging-out and feeling drained, exhausted. But I also have some that have me feeling amped, energetic, and inspired while getting lit-up from the beautiful love-Universe and Pure Source! I open to allow and receive.

However you comprehend what this triple 3 day means for you: (examples of) the Trinity… mind, body, spirit; beginning, middle, ending; the Father, the Son, and Holy Spirit… it is Divine. This is a day of Divine/Pure Source energies, frequencies, codes, upgrades, love, expansion, transformation, awakening, awareness, intuition, and that general deep, deep inner-soul-stuff! 🙂

Enjoy it! Feel it! Integrate it! Keep rockin’ your new-self on this new-earth!
Love and blessings ❤

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I heart DNA Upgrades!

The DNA upgrades are continuing on. Yes, of course they are!

The last couple of weeks I have been having some re-wiring going on and I have been noticing them, acknowledging them, observing them all while giving them the love, care, and space-for-assimilation needed.

As I have been clearing out my ‘old’ – I make way to let my ‘new’ keep coming in. New light-body… I can feel the rebuilding happening. It’s subtle for the most part. There are moments of intensity – but they seem fairly quick and not as intensely-intrusive as they used to be. My early days required a shake-up, I guess. When it’s new and misunderstood – it can be a bit jarring at times. Not to say that I am done having those… I have NO idea! I am just noticing that they seem to be a little less disruptive. Discovering (and then applying) that I can be and should be working with these activations was a game-changer for me. I have opted for the light-body DNA upgrading to be done with ease and grace. Ask for it. Command it. This is something we all can do. It doesn’t have to be a jarring, scary, freak-out type of transmissional-activity. It took me a couple of these ‘sudden bursts’ of weirdness to realize… it’s okay, I’m okay! And that I can be ‘with’ it, in love and gratitude, while things are happening.

I would cross-reference my upgrade-activation-activities with something I would later read (or hear) about. Guided to by my higher-self because it’s what I needed. It is validating and has a tendency to ease the monkey-mind. After a couple of these teachable moments (ah, yes, always learning!) I have become confident that the goings-on’s with my physical body, that just aren’t considered ‘normal’, are light-body re-wirings/upgrades. It helps when you have a pretty-good knowing or relationship with/about your body, or body-awareness, in general. I feel that having the connection, which I do have with my physical body, has helped me recognize, know, and understand (or cognize) a little quicker – than someone who probably has no connection with their bodies.

I have recently had the experience of my eyes and vision being ‘worked-on’; the re-wiring and upgrading. It happens… well, whenever it wants to! Once you open up to receive and allow your DNA to be upgraded – your physical body will follow suit (haha… pun intended… because our bodies are our human-suits!… anyway…) 🙂 My eyes decided to give me a blurry/wavy peripheral vision. Clear and sharp straight ahead, wavy and pulsing in my peripheral. It was interesting to just witness this. Tunnel vision? In a really weird way!

About a minute in (when I realized this ‘thing’ was not stopping) I asked: what is happening? And then my vision began to vibrate. It had… a pulsing sensation that I have never experienced before. This vision-work lasted a couple of minutes at various levels of what I can only describe as: bizarre. At one point it was like I was looking under water. I decided to close my eyes and just be in the moment. Feeling it while also visualizing being wrapped in Divine light and love. It was calming. I was calm. Within just a couple of minutes the adjustment was done.

You can resist or you can be at peace. I am knowing that being at peace is w-a-y smoother and easier than resisting! Some upgrade-adjustments could be doozies or they might be gentle. Everyone is different and we all have various ‘things’ we need to unload and clear in order for the new light and frequencies to come-on-in and make themselves at home. You also need to actually want that! Just because there is constant activity (right now) of becoming 5D/crystalline you do have the option, the choice, to accept or deny the change and wanting to be here, to experience it, to evolve.

For those of us that choose to stay, want to stay, and want to experience expansion; give permission to upgrade – and you will! Consciously or sub-consciously it works either way. I do feel that those that are choosing sub-consciously will have a lot more slaps-in-the-face and gut-punches than those who are choosing at the conscious level. If you don’t understand that your higher self/soul has chosen to integrate into the new earth paradigm – you might have some bigger struggles. You consciously don’t know or understand that you need to shake off and clear out a lot of old gunk. Things aren’t working the way they once did, people might be irritating you on a different level, and relationships are morphing into something that you can’t quite put your finger on. The change, whatever it may be, is signaling you, or them. There’s so many dynamics to awakening and the ascension process(es) that there is no one right answer or one-size-fits-all right now. But whatever it is that’s coming up, or keeps coming up, for you – it’s giving you a chance right now to open up those sleepy-eyes and look around! Wakey, wakey… eggs and bakey! There will be no more ‘hitting the snooze button’… it is time to wake up, get up, and get going! 5D has already begun!

I know there was a lot of clearing, for me, in 2018. There will probably be more clearing this year too. I don’t know how long it will take me to get all these ‘onion-layers’ peeled. I do know that each time I do clear what no longer serves me, clear cords and attachments, clear the lower vibrational stuff, clear-clear-clear… it’s allowing more light! More Divine light and higher vibrational consciousness! More-more-more! It feels good – and it should!

Love and blessings everyone!
Enjoy the energies of light and love… keep peeling your layers!

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