Procrastination

On this energetic day of 2’s…

I just wanted to post a quote that became an instant favorite of mine.

It’s from Abraham Hicks, and it just resonated with me… it brought a smile to my face; as those who know me – know I can be a chronic-procrastinator. Well, maybe ‘chronic’ is too harsh of a word because it’s not all the time. I have moments or blocks-of-time where I seem to be more procrastinating than others. I’ve even openly admitted this in my writings here.

Procrastination, in my life (and probably for most), has a 3D label surrounding it: ‘lazy’. I always found that to be an irritating way to try to describe something that one just doesn’t have the deepest desire to do (right away). It’s not like I don’t want to do it… it’s just that I don’t have the energies to deal with it at that time (whatever that may be). I have always had an interesting relationship with ‘procrastination’ and I know this is part of my healing journey here.

My inner-knowing has always been letting me know that… it just isn’t really that important at this time. While those around me – the ones who think time is actually real (thinking linear) – feel I should be getting all things done, and getting them done yesterday! 🙂 I don’t let their issues with procrastination bother me. Because, really, it’s also about perception of what procrastination is (individually).

So, yes, I know this is ‘self-inflicted’ and I’m working through this area/issue – while I work-on and clean-up my childhood wounds. And… as I do-this… the quick little quote from Abraham Hicks explains it well:

What is the definition of procrastination?
It means: I can feel within my energy sensor that this action is not in perfect alignment at this time!

**Nailed-it! 🙂

All things Abraham Hicks can be checked out here:

Enjoy! https://www.abraham-hicks.com/

2-19 This Full Moon Is SUPER

Full Snow Super-Moon! Big bright beautiful moon!

Absolutely gorgeous – it has been, yes. The nights leading up to the super-moon – radiant; powerful, awe-inspiring, yes! (Insert your best Yoda impersonation here)

I can’t sleep because it has been so bright. But then I realize… I kind-of don’t want to! My mind-body-spirit connection has been on high-alert; basically since the new year started. When I say high-alert – I am meaning: in-tune like never before. The things going on now are a whole-nuther level UP from, even, last year!

This new earth energy has me firing up some cylinders that I didn’t even know I had. Ya, there are a couple of rusty-cylinders that I have been consistently scrubbing, cleaning, and buffing with the inner-knowing of bringing them back to full-‘life’-potential but this journaling isn’t about that… at least I don’t think it is. Maybe it is! Ahhh, these are also confusing times. What exactly is it that I am doing? Or supposed to be doing? I can get a little A.D.D. and feel like I am all over the place – all while trying to get with the grips of this new reality, the new earth, the 5D and ascension that is upon us.

These continual non-stop ascension activities are messing with some stuff. I’m not sure if ‘messing’ is the right term though. I (like most all of us) was living in a cloud for so long, a haze of programmed ways of thinking, believing, processing, and just assuming that ‘this is real’; when technically – it was not.

THIS… this ‘now’ is not really ‘messing’ with stuff – if it was never real to begin with. It just appears that way. That is the ego-mind/monkey-mind trying to organize and process what it doesn’t even understand or comprehend.

The 3D is dissolving, I guess this is what is getting ‘messed with’. It’s letting go of the old, and learning or re-learning/remembering, how to adjust with all the newly integrated 5D+. It can feel a little crazy-tired-and-wired all at the same time. For example… right now – I am super tired! I am physically exhausted but my higher consciousness is wanting to gobble-up so much new information right now! It is wanting me to keep gradually pressing down on that gas pedal. I then find myself bypassing sleep mode for reading, reading, reading, listening, listening, listening, writing, writing, writing; and repeat! Physically pooped… mentally awake and spiritually-‘hyper-active’! This happens quite frequently for me! It reminds me of the scene in the movie ‘The Matrix’ when Neo gets hooked up to learn – and learns Kung Fu, for example. He wants to know: more!

There’s a constant download of all-things-new; new discoveries, new information, new perspectives. It’s not actually new 🙂 but it is to me! This has been my ride since my awakening. I have moments when things slow down; I take some time for self-care: I integrate, I assimilate, adjust and work on my alignment. I have chunks of time where all I want to do is meditate and sleep. Just enough, apparently, before I go through another round of feeling the high energies, absorbing, learning, opening up to Pure Source wisdom, receiving downloads, frequencies, light, and healing energies. Mentally jazzed and excited and going probably a little too fast for the physical body to keep up. It’s a cycle I see myself easily getting caught up in, but I recognize it and remind myself – it’s time to take a nap! Slow down – you can get right back into it after some rest. Right now, though, I am binging on all this fun new stuff!! Things are, literally, changing daily! This really ‘lights the fires and kicks the tires’…

This super-full-moon is just more energies in the mix that is: my life (maybe yours too)! All these full moon’s we have been having at ‘zero degrees’ is culminating it all into this amazing zero set point right now. It is a full-on energetic-high-vibrational time. I have been feeling it continually amping-up. And from what I am understanding – there’s no slowing down any time soon. Along with Gaia, we all have a lot of clearing/shifting to do in order to reach our highest potential(s).

Full moons are great for clearing, releasing, and healing! You gotta clean out the ‘old’ so all your ‘new’ has a place to go/be/do! Good bye 3D! Hello 5D, you can come on in… 3D was just leaving! 🙂

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1-20/21 – Total Lunar Eclipse

I love all these energy-days, portal days, gateways, eclipses… they are such a great time to check-in with yourself.
They can be, if you ‘take note’ and utilize them in that sense.

I’ve always loved these kind of events, even as a kid. I always thought these kinds of cosmic days had a special-feel to them, they were cool and amazing. Astrology-wise I liked the information, guidance or direction, that was offered but I didn’t really understand the deeper/spiritual meaning of ‘why’ until I started waking up.

These are days of higher consciousness, Christ-Conscious, awareness, higher vibration, and Universal love and support – unity consciousness. Little booster-blasts from the Universe, the Cosmos, to and for us.

When I try to think about how amazing this Universe is and how everything is perfectly designed, timed (linear for us humans), and adjusted (maybe/sometimes/probably) … all for our awakening and ascension… it blows-my-mind! I know I am barely scratching the surface when I ponder the Universe and how our planet is this big, beautiful, experiment.

Today (20th or 21st) we have this Full Super Blood Wolf Moon Total Lunar Eclipse thing happening! Woah! What else can we add to this? It’s at zero degrees (that ‘zero-point’ kind of thing – where physical meets spiritual) and let’s also throw on the power of the 3 too! Creative, creative, creative!!

I hope my head doesn’t explode when I head out to the backyard tonight to bask in all of its glory! Also… I really hope I have clear enough skies to enjoy it visually. It’s been touch and go around here; most nights have been cloudy.

Eclipses, in general, can bring on sudden change: they can illuminate/expose and they can be catalysts/triggers. Depending on what you need to be working on; something deep that needs to come up (probably). They can be path correctors, path aligners, re-aligners/adjusters, boosters, accelerators, and expanders. Lunar eclipses can help you close-up shop, get some completion, finish things (all to start new again… ahhh, the cycles). We are all at different places within – so experiences will vary… for sure!

This event has so much going on! And… is setting everyone up for success – if you utilize it and let it help you anchor your intentions. Your awesome and wonderful highest-good intentions! I don’t know about you – but this thing just sounds so dreamy and lovely!

Tonight, while the energy is high-powered I will be journaling, dream-listing, reality-listing, conjuring up some goals, and setting intentions. I will be getting into the high-vibrational zone and the feel good energy! Then there will be a few moments (if the clouds will allow it) of stepping out to look directly at the action taking place. (*If it was warmer than the 10 degrees where I live… I would be hanging-out outside much longer and really ‘being-with-it’.)

I don’t know if I will feel compelled to howl at the moon; while I am outside freezing my butt-off and drinking it all in. If I do – there is a possible chance that I just might get an answer back. It would most likely be a coyote – but hey… we’re still in the Year of the Dog, right?! That’s also: Me. My Chinese zodiac is the Dog. Maybe I will finish off the Year of the Dog with that great, loud, emotional howl at the moon! Releasing all the ‘old’ while opening up to the ‘new’!

This lunar eclipse is the other ‘book-end’ to the solar eclipse we had back in August of 2017 (Leo eclipses). Yup… ‘closing up shop’ for that Leo cycle we all just went through.

Completion! Completion in order to start new! Closure then rebirth! New for 2019! New energies of creation and creativity, joy, happiness, love, Spirit, abundance, opportunities, leading to manifestation and more growth. Sounds good to me!

Happy Full Moon Total Lunar Eclipse!
Give yourself a good ‘checking-in’!

May you be in-your-heart today… ❤

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My Thank You Card to 2018

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Well, I made it through the 2018 (Master 11) year and I feel pretty good about that ‘batch’.

The batch of inner-works that would present themselves to me for: acknowledging, appreciating, loving, learning from, cleaning, clearing, and releasing. So much work has been done!

Thank you 2018! I appreciate and am thankful for all you have brought to me and have shown me. For the opportunities, the choices, the decisions and the love in all of it! (That Spiritual/Divine love)

The first part of the year seemed light compared to the end of the year. But that’s to be expected (and normal) as one keeps plugging along in their growth, expansion, and evolution.

I look forward to 2019 and all it will be offering me as I stay open to receive; learn more, keep digging deeper… with more recognition and acknowledgements; more acceptance, more loving, more clearing and more releasing. You’re never done! It’s just moving up another step.

When you start clearing clutter – you make room for everything that is Divinely yours. I am meaning: for you to be more aware and trusting, to notice it faster, accept it faster, manifest easier. Too many ‘blocks‘ in place cause a lag in your ‘collecting’ of all that is yours! I look forward to the opportunities of 2019… whatever they may be; because with that – is more choices and decisions to make. Decisions that can take me even higher towards the vibrations of pure love and pure light. It’s all soul path progression towards soul purpose and evolution.

Yes, thank you 2018. You were (sometimes) a bumpy ride but overall a good one!

Love and Blessings!

…and here’s to an awesomely, amazing, wonderful 2019!! Cheers!

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12-21 – Full Moon & December

With this busy time of year – getting in some time to journal can be a toughie.

I always make time to jot down a few things about my day, every day. Some days are more detailed than others – but that’s okay. I’m making sure I journal my… any-things, a something! From the smallest-gratitude to the most recent/current physical symptom (or happenings) – I have really developed a love for journaling.

It’s the typical story: didn’t really journal, then dabbled in it, it was hit-and-miss; then decided I would commit to it. Made it a daily habit, started out small but grew to make it a scheduled habit. When I began to make it a part of my daily routine… it really started sticking and developing into something that, now, if I don’t do it – it feels ‘off’. There are many times when I journal about Monday on Tuesday type of thing… but I am still – not missing a day.

As this year winds-down and is coming to its close… it is fun, and interesting, to look back over my journaling’s to see how far I have progressed. What a year! I am so grateful and thankful for everything I have accomplished: internally and externally! I will have to say though – the internal work was definitely challenging and way-more rewarding than anything I could have done outside of me. I am grateful for getting over some of the hurdles that were presented to me throughout this past year. I want to work on this stuff; I want to clear-the-crap, I want to learn from lessons, and have growth because of it all. Every time I can work through something and clear it – release it, I feel lighter. And I know this is all part of the work that needs to be done right now.

There’s that saying (about material things): you can’t take it with you when you die. Well, about the: emotional/programmed/negative-beliefs/trauma/past-life stuff… I don’t want to take that with me any-more – when I die! (Lots of past-lives for me.) I am done with it all and am working on peeling it off of me! Yes, this is quite the project but I am worth it! We ALL need to feel and believe (and KNOW) we are worth it!

This past year has been about shaking the fruit off the tree (for a lot of people). Those that are awake and those that are awakening now – this year was a big-pulsing-in-your-face-alarm-clock going off. 5D is now! This is happening whether any one likes it or not! And, damn, I am super-stoked about it! 🙂

This week of the Solstice Gateway, finishing up on 12-21, along with the actual Winter Solstice and the full moon… it’s almost practically synching up! These energies are so close together I’m probably going to feel something crack or pop inside of me! It might be dizzying. I remind myself to stay grounded! And I remind myself to ‘take care’.

I am still doing some ‘physical purging’ – things have happened to me (since 11-11-‘11’) that I haven’t felt/experienced in probably ten years! They also appear random – but I know they are not. A random bloody nose (I never get these), a random throwing-up (this one is rare for me, I hardly ever do this)… I am feeling totally fine, feel normal/healthy/no other symptoms – these just ‘came on’. Weird, yes, but I also felt better when they were done. I have had weird moments of wobbly balance, for example: walking ‘into a door’ when I clearly should have gone right through the center! There’s a few other oddities but these are examples of my ‘interesting’ month. I know that old, toxic/negative ‘stuff’ is being cleansed from me right now. I have even been doing this particular kind of work/meditating these last couple of months. So, I figured I would see/experience something (of a cleansing-nature).

I actually have been doing this cleaning/clearing work for a couple of years but for some reason… right now, it feels different. It feels like I am getting past (and have gotten past) the surface-layers and finally getting to the core. Deep, deep emotional/ego cleaning. Really bringing up and removing the density. Clearing old patterns/programs, lineage/dark-negative lineage, toxins/viruses… just all kinds – of cleaning, clearing, cutting/removing chords and hooks. As I keep integrating more light – this stuff has to leave. It cannot stay; there is no room for it, no need for it, there is no advancing/evolving with it still attached. I never thought I would be ‘bowing-to-the-porcelain-god’, out of the blue, to purge something from me – this never crossed my mind (side-note: I hate… hate this body-function. I appreciate it for its purpose when really needed; unless I have a stomach flu – but even then… no thank you! Of all the functions our bodies can do/provide – throwing up is my number 1 most un-liked. I will do everything and anything to NOT go through this)! This one… shocked-me! But the feeling of literally and figuratively unloading something (I don’t know what it was and I don’t need to) I was feeling better after; and in 24 hours I was feeling great! I just felt… great!

I really don’t know why I am writing about my bodily functions, but at the same time – this is what is really going on. This is what is happening. Ignoring it, pretending it’s not going on, is not the answer. I know that others are experiencing weird purging’s too. We all need to dump some stuff so we can keep ascending into our 5D (and beyond) bodies. Awakening and ascending is not all pretty rainbows and butterflies. There is some serious heavy-lifting some of us need to do, there’s trench crawling, and working our way out of muddy, mucky, gunk. And the more times you have incarnated on this planet (the more past lives you have had) the more work to be done. I, for one, am an old soul. I have been here a lot! I have been working on clearing stuff for a few years and there has been a lot of crying-sessions. I am not done crying (although I have gotten better at what used to ‘set me off’ and I know it’s because I have worked through it) and I am not done clearing. But knowing that I have moved into the phase of some truly physically purging and releasing things from me, in a weird way, is nice.

The rest of December might be smooth, it might not. I don’t know. I do know that I will continue to give myself some time every day to just be with myself. If it’s 5 minutes or if it’s more – it’s part of the self-care and nurturing that is required at this time. The energies are going to keep ramping up. Before we know it – it will be January and the total lunar eclipse (on the 20/21st) will be introducing us to another new layer of energies.

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Keep taking care, keep loving (yourself and others), keep clearing/releasing, keep bringing in the light – fill yourself with it! If you are one that celebrates Christmas, and will be with family, remain in your heart. It may or may not be challenging; just remember that everyone is feeling this energy right now. It’s just that there are a lot of people that don’t know why – or what – is ‘going on’. They just walk around with emotions on the surface; might be quick to anger (because they are being triggered by their own deeper emotions), they might seem confused or disoriented. They might be feeling sick – on various levels. Stuff (things/actions or words said) can trigger people right now. Stay in your heart while they go through their motion/emotion. If you can be an observer… that’s even better! Things also might come back around for you (‘this again?!’). Why? Why is this visiting again? It’s there for you to do something different this time, and from a higher perspective. There are lessons in everything, hopefully a lesson learned this time around… some wisdom now gathered!

Happy rest of the year!

Happy Solstice Gateway, Winter Solstice, Full Moon, Merry Christmas, and Happy New Year!
Whew! I am exhausted!

🙂

Love and Blessings!

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