April!

Things have been fairly calm the last couple of weeks, and there is nothing wrong with ‘calm’. 🙂

I did have a wonderful birthday at the end of March. I got to hang-out and get caught up with my favorite sister! She’s my favorite because she is my only sister.  🙂  This has nothing to do with sister-in-law’s, of which I have those. The sister – sister is a unique relationship. Our family consists of a lot of brothers and us two girls. So, it’s safe to say – we have a special bond.

We live so far apart that when we do get to spend some real quality time together – we stay up super late… every single night! You would think I would have gotten tired but I didn’t. I was in the throes of having fun, discussing the deepest of deep issues, eating chocolate and sampling wines (spread out over the week). It was a great b-day week for sure! I will admit… a couple days in, I was starting to look pretty haggard and I didn’t even care. Yup, pretty fun!

April is now here and good grief… half way over already! I knew time was speeding up but I could swear it was the first just two days ago! There has been the gradual increase in outside/yard work for us. More time outside now that the snow has receded enough to start digging in the dirt. It’s only going to keep increasing and becoming busier (in a good way)! I am so looking forward to the days of warm sunshine and cloudless nights (stars and meteor showers… right?!).

I’ve also been getting hit with creative inspirations that have me back-at-it in my art studio. I have been hit-and-miss this last/past year. I am feeling the creation-vibes really starting to juice back up. I know that most of the stop and go syndrome I had was due to a lot of the clearing, releasing and purging of some really dense blockages I was packing around. I find that with each bit of releasement of the ‘old’ I gain a new, fresh, perspective. With higher vibrational energies comes a series of thought patterns for my creative processes, my next creative inspired action, and that extension of myself. I’m also finding interest in places outside and beyond my ‘normal’; or what used to be my normal. And this is all very good!

I’m pretty sure, since 2019 has started, I went up another step on that giant staircase of ‘life’… I might have even gone up two! You know the one… it has thousands of steps to climb! However many steps I just climbed in these last couple of months – it has been feeling really good. Good, great and wonderful all the way to my core! My soul-core!

I know there has been some major shifting going on and I have been doing my best at integrating and assimilating. The adjustment period can be quick or it can be more drawn out. I have moments of both – depending on what I need and where I need it. I understand the pulsing running through my body, the body-rocks, and the ‘waves’. I understand the shifting of frequencies, ringing, and pitch going on in my ears. I understand the change in vision. I understand when I can see light-shadow and ‘orbs’ before my camera does! Yes, there are some really awesome shifts happening. And we are all adjusting differently. Allowing and not holding any resistance is what gets you to that ‘next step’ a little quicker. It’s been fun and some really cool things are manifesting for me.

As this month comes and goes… I will continue to remain open and keep working on myself. We’re never done… nope. There’s no going back even if I tried. But why the hell would I want to?! Yikes! Just thinking about all that low vibrational density I spent years cleaning up has me appreciate how far along I have come! It went from: looking back over a year (at the change and progress)… to: looking at change in a month! I know that the weekly change is coming. Heck – I might even be ‘in it’ now. Who knows when the ‘daily’ will show up?! My best guess… I’m already doing ‘dailies’ but I will notice it a week later! Hahaha! 🙂 Funny!

I just keep living in my ‘now’; working on myself, releasing what needs to go, then filling up with The Divine love and light. Chipping away at my ‘block’, I guess. And trying to remain in the happiness-zone. Not all days are perfect; and that’s okay too. It’s called being human. 🙂

Love and blessings!

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3-20 & 21

YES! Happy spring! It’s also the final of the five consecutive zero degrees full moons. Our zero-point!

All I can say is: wow! Wow! What an elevating/invigorating last few months around here. When I say here – I mean… Planet Earth! 🙂

The last time we had a full moon spring equinox was apparently back in March 1981. So… it’s been awhile. I guess it almost happened in 2000… but not quite. In ’81 I was 11… and when I crunch the numbers that would have been a ‘one’ year. It was a numerological year of new beginnings – and I would have not been paying attention to that. I didn’t really start getting into numerology until my 20’s.

At eleven I was living that carefree life of the youth. I was probably riding my bike along the ditch-bank roads, catching butterflies (yes, I had a net and everything!), reading books, and crafting something. Cross stitch and beading bracelets was where I was at as an eleven year old. Being consciously aware of trying to manifest my own abundance was not at the forefront. I was just: doing!

I was doing things that I loved! Doing those inspired actions. If I wanted to go bake a batch of cookies to share with family, I did. If I wanted to paint something, I did. If I wanted to make some jewelry, I did. You get the picture. If the uninhibited compulsion to do some fun activity struck me… I did it. No excuses. I went and did it. If the ‘stuff’ wasn’t there for me to do my main-goal, I went to plan ‘B’. I would manifest those impulsive ‘visions’ in my head/heart in some form or another. That freedom of being the child without (any apparent) blocks and ‘baggage’ was a liberating time (for me). I see it now. I see that there was ‘no resistance’ as a kid.

I didn’t have the built up blocks back then. Yes, they were definitely developing. Hahaha 🙂 I can laugh at it now because I have worked through some of them. But in those childhood moments – I didn’t care. That ‘being in the flow’ was what it’s all about. I am working on bringing this back into my life. I would love reclaiming that point of ‘no resistance’ again. I am working on it, definitely. Because I have a few different areas that I am addressing with myself… with each step of forgiveness, releasing, clearing and loving… I am moving into less resistance. This helps in the letting go and being in flow. I can look back over the last year and see noticeable improvements within my deep, childhood healing.

So… as I work on my childhood, it opens me up to my unlimited potential in my adulthood. That free-flowing, loving what I’m doing, having fun, inspired actions! And spring time has always been a great booster for energizing creativity! For me anyway.

This time around, with this amazing super full moon spring equinox, I am paying attention to the energies. I am also utilizing it probably way better than I did when I was 11. 🙂

Like any other spring equinox… it’s a fresh start, inspiration, newness and adventure! There is that warmth of the sun perking you right up and, yes, putting that spring in your step! On the surface this one might not be that much different. Except (it is!) it has new-energies ‘booster-blaster’ in it to help propel us further in our expansion, ascension, stepping into our truth… to BE our true selves! There’s an energy with this one that can be felt.

I’m totally okay with that! Even my eleven year old self even thinks that’s pretty cool! Keep integrating and adjusting to all these wonderful love-n-light Universal/Cosmic energies that are flooding us! Live from your heart, have fun, and manifest your abundance!
Happy spring and happy 3-3-‘3’ gateway!

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3-3-‘3’

Happy mind, body, and spirit gateway-day! As a 3-3-3 portal it seems to have a few ways of being looked at; and I am noticing various ‘this and that’s’. Perspective, right? I am finding that however it is being conceptualized/translated it boils-down to the core energies/knowings of: Christ-consciousness, Ascended Masters/Spirit, and you/your soul/awakening, aligning, ascending and transforming.

I, personally (probably like many others), have a LOT going on right now. And I am noticing: hard-core!

Along with the myriad of gateways, portals, and cosmic events/happenings… this 3 year is pressing down on my gas-pedal. It is offering me another layer of energetic-action(s) because 3 is my life path number. A three life-path in a three-year… powerful stuff! Today is really feeling like a T-H-R-E-E punch! In a good way.

As if this wasn’t already enough for me to integrate, assimilate, and work-with I also am fully engaged into my Chiron return… in Aries! Do I have moments where I feel like I could implode? Uh… yes! Hahaha! 🙂

Seriously though, Chiron in Aries has me working-on and healing, releasing, clearing my wounding’s while this new energetic year of ‘3’ has me propelling forward.

Have I been busy at my core-level? Yes!

Does it have me feeling like I am all-over the place? Yes!

Am I needing naps (longer meditations or to sleep in) because the energies I continually integrate knock me on my ass? Yes!

Do I find myself in a pool of tears because I find, face, and forgive a deep wound/scar; while simultaneously feel love, joy and happiness that I am now free from it? Hell-Yes!

So… as this 3-3-3 day brings in another layer/level of intense vibrational upgrades – I have actually been feeling pretty energetic! BUT I know that at some point… I am going to get hit with a wave that will probably have me feeling K-O’d! (knocked out) 

I like having a portal-day pumping me up with energy and actually feeling: energetic! I will admit… they can be hit and miss. Some portals/gateways – have me completely vegging-out and feeling drained, exhausted. But I also have some that have me feeling amped, energetic, and inspired while getting lit-up from the beautiful love-Universe and Pure Source! I open to allow and receive.

However you comprehend what this triple 3 day means for you: (examples of) the Trinity… mind, body, spirit; beginning, middle, ending; the Father, the Son, and Holy Spirit… it is Divine. This is a day of Divine/Pure Source energies, frequencies, codes, upgrades, love, expansion, transformation, awakening, awareness, intuition, and that general deep, deep inner-soul-stuff! 🙂

Enjoy it! Feel it! Integrate it! Keep rockin’ your new-self on this new-earth!
Love and blessings ❤

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Grounding!

I had a moment of not being in my body today and I noticed how weird it was. I noticed how weird it was that I also noticed (how weird it was)!

I thought I was doing my normal grocery shopping task… and being: normal (or 3D, if you will). 🙂

To begin with, I will mention that doing the actual shopping – it seemed like I was kind-of mentally there but not really. All well and good, I guess. But when it came time to check out and pay for all my groceries… I suddenly felt really weird, I felt floaty, I felt wavy… I felt like I was observing myself stumbling along with trying to pay. I even recognized that ‘I feel like I am watching myself starring at this wallet’. Hmmm… weird. I feel a little… weird.

I watched myself look through a wallet that seemed suddenly foreign to me. What am I paying with? What are all these cards? Is this even my wallet? Yes… yes it is.

I found my card. I then had a brief moment with the terminal… WTF? What is with all the brain farts? After paying I head out to the car. I had another floaty-moment and stared at my car while I was trying to comprehend the unlocking of it. I suddenly found myself mentally walking through the steps, visualizing in my mind, of getting into my car! I then realized… shit… I am so-not-grounded! I need to ground, and do it now!

I might have even blurted this out loud in the parking lot… I can’t remember. I just knew I was going to ground into Gaia right then and there! I gave myself a brief moment of standing between my open car door and the cart… feeling Gaia under my feet and sending my grounding cord down. Seconds later I was telling myself to grab each bag, one at a time. Feel the weight, notice them, and arrange them in the car… I was focusing-in on the moment… the ‘now’.

This was good. I was feeling ‘better’ by the time I was all done and back in the driver seat! By ‘better’ I am meaning – like I was ‘all there’ again and felt like I was back on earth! The drive home even felt different. Which tells me I left the house totally floaty and ungrounded. Accidents happen when you aren’t grounded.

This was definitely a reminder that I need to ground more frequently than I used to; and probably should be making it a daily conscious effort! The Gaia energies and 5D transformation(s) have had me all over the place lately. Things are speeding up and if my 5D DNA is taking me there/with her… I need to make it a point to practice grounding-in way more than I did… even just a few months ago!

I know I am living in a duality-space right now. This place and space between worlds is becoming something I can sense (and pick up on) a little faster with each time I find myself in the ‘between’. I am just guessing that those of us in ascension-mode probably have some of the same things happening but also very different!

I might even be in that bubble where it used to be: ground so you can meditate and ‘take yourself there’ while making sure you are connecting to Gaia. But lately I feel there is a flipping going on where it’s: ground because you are already ‘there’, regardless of meditation(s), and you still need to keep your connection to Gaia! I don’t know if that makes sense. It’s probably going to get harder and harder to describe what is going on/happening – as I keep upgrading and going 5D. Stuff can get indescribable.

There is probably no words in our planetary-human-vocabulary that can even come close to the Divine energies one can feel, sense, experience, cognize, integrate and assimilate.

So… on that note… I guess this is a heads up that my future journaling’s will probably consist of made-up words and concepts in order to try to describe the sensations, energies, physical shifting, and awareness-es. 🙂

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